New revelation about me revealed….

I can’t begin to explain this out pouring The Holy Spirit is putting in me for mothers of daughters. As a child I wanted to give kids, particularly girls, a voice. As I became a mother to a baby girl this want only increased. Right away I started a journal to Kayla explaining the trials of being a young girl. I wanted to talk to her while I was still one my self, knowing that by the time was 16 I’d already be “mom” and wouldn’t be able to relate. Then I found Christ and that old me died. And the way to handle those trials I wrote to her about were all wrong. Right away I hungered for a way to reach young girls. But God knew that I needed to go through refining before I could ever properly guide anyone to His Son. And I am no where near where I should be, but God has been showing me that for the past 11.5 years, w/His help we have raised an amazingly Godly daughter. One that is so strong in her Faith and convictions that she has been able to rebuke me when I am behaving in a way unpleasant to the Lord. Via email which is hilarious and just like me. 🙂

Anyway, through this and the women that He’s brought to me through the last few years I am now seeing that I can reach the children by reaching out to the mothers. The ones who like me, still question whose they are at times and struggle with ruining their kids all while trying to figure out thier own sanctification. It’s amazing to be able to look back on my life and see how He has worked everything out so beautifully so that through experience and His Spirit, we could reach those who are deeply entangled in sin and pain, without casting harsh judgement on who they are in His eyes. You see bc the Truth of the matter is, who you are in Christ is why God allowed Him to be crucified. You’re worth THAT much.

~sometimes I just gotta write~


The Spirit gives life; the flesh counts for nothing.

“This is why I told you that no one can come to me unless the Father has enabled him.” John 6:65 NIV

I know that I have had to have read these words before, but today they stood out to me in a new way. Recently a woman I have been praying for has reached out to me to help her renew her relationship with God. Which has renewed my relationship as well. Not that I have strayed; but there was a dullness in my passion. I had begun to doubt my effectiveness to those on my Facebook page. (This is where I have felt led to reach women where they are, and God has continually opened up hearts and allowed my life within Him effect others.)

As I’ve been praying ever more for her these last few days, I’ve been reminded of the time when I was where she is at this moment in her life. Broken from trying to live this life on my own. Man, was that an exhausting place to be. As I’ve done this God has given me the words to pray and to send her as an encouragement. When I read these words this morning she came to mind. I wanted to send them to her to say “Look…God has enabled YOU, you can rest knowing that none of this is your doing.” Which brings me to the very first passage that I read this morning, before this one. “The Spirit gives life; the flesh counts for nothing” John 6:63a (and to be honest until this very moment I read that line in a different context for a totally different struggle that I’m faced with. That’s why I love writing so much….God always speaks to me when I think He wants to just speak through me.)

See what these Words have spoken to me today are TRUTH. God has enabled me to see them as life. I can do all the things that seem “right” and still never accomplish anything for Him. I can truly REST knowing that He will enable me, and His Spirit is providing life for me and those He places in my life.

If you are where she is at the beginning of a long journey back to the Father, or where I am overly joyful to hear His voice after a time of silence, I hope these words have helped encouraged you. If they haven’t that’s ok because they’ve encouraged me…. Just try to remember that no matter where you are in your journey with Our Father….He has already enabled you to do so. He has called you back into His presence. Rest in Him.  Let His Spirit GIVE you life. Anything you think you need to do, will count for NOTHING.

Keep getting back up

Keep getting back up

This email triggered the following post. Which is an email I sent to women I care about. Wanted to share it on here also. Hoping it encourages someone.

Good Morning Ladies,

I’m not currently reading this study but I still have the emails sent to me. A couple days ago I happen to open one of them and the author Melissa Taylor was having one attack after another. It felt very similar to times where I felt I couldn’t even get my knees wiped off before I had been knocked down again. I’m sure some of you if not all can relate.

Today I happen to open it again and I was so encouraged by her email. Tears came in the beginning, you Momma’s who grasp onto your babies as a life line when you’re sinking will see it when you get there. But the reason I wanted to share her words with you is bc we need to be reminded that we are ALL in this battle together. We ALL, rich, famous, poor, housewife, whatever your label, we are ALL in this battle and we all get knocked down. It’s who we lean on that helps get us up. Surround yourself ladies with women who speak LIFE into your life. Not suck it out. Separate yourselves from anyone who causes that burden to seem heavier than it really is. Even if that person is family….you need to be proactive in this battle and the first step in that is by eliminating anyone and anything that causes your walk in Christ to come to a halt.

If you are that person in someone’s life than repent of it and make right what you’ve said or done. (Ok that apparently was for me and my marriage bc as I’m writing this I’m thinking none of these women would do that….which means its me and I have to repent of the behavior I’ve displayed to ny husband…doh! Hate when that happens.)

Anyway, there’s my morning heart for those of you who took the time to read. Love you! And am praying for you to keep getting back up.