I love Jesus! 

I love Jesus so much. I truly get overwhelmed with emotion when I think about all that He’s given me. He’s rescued me from. Taught me. Shown me. But most of all, I love Him because of who He is and who I am because of who He is. 

I didn’t grow up knowing God. It wasn’t until almost my 30s did I truly start desiring a life with Him. Even still I had no idea who Jesus really was. 

Until the day I said out loud “I don’t even know who Jesus is” I can remember where I stood in my back yard. As if God had made sure to take a snapshot of the day His baby girl was ready to know Him and Herself. 

To say getting to know Jesus was easy would be a lie. Romans 7 talks about the battle we have with our flesh and our Spirit and this battle happens witjin our mind. Unfortunately for me, and I’m assuming most, it bled out through my actions. I was so double minded holding on to my flesh and having such an agonizing death of it. 

It took almost 3 years to truly die to MYSELF, 3 years after confessing the sin of unbelief. 

My mind was always mine to take hold of. The mind of Christ is ours, it’s our PROMISE LAND. We’ve just got to believe in the PROMISES He’s given us. 

Today, I rejoice in those horrendous years. Without them I wouldn’t know the beauty that I possess today. Knowing who I AM, knowing who Jesus is, is truly the sweetest gift God can give us. 

The Promise land is ours for the taking. And today I pray if you struggle with unbelief in any area you confess and begin the process of coming to know Him as He truly is, GOD. And knowing who you are in HIM, ONE. 

I love Jesus and this is one of the many reasons why. 


His Words are better 

There are days the Lord takes me on a journey through His written Word. 

I don’t try to explain it, merely record it. 

Here is his sweetness from today. 

Be blessed 💖 May you hear what He has to say. 
For the mind set on the flesh is death, but the mind set on the Spirit is life and peace,

Romans 8:6 

Set your mind on the things above, not on the things that are on earth.

Colossians 3:2 

And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, so that you may prove what the will of God is, that which is good and acceptable and perfect.

Romans 12:2 

No soldier in active service entangles himself in the affairs of everyday life, so that he may please the one who enlisted him as a soldier.

2 Timothy 2:4 

Watch over your heart with all diligence, For from it flow the springs of life.

Proverbs 4:23 

Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart Be acceptable in Your sight, O Lord , my rock and my Redeemer.

Psalms 19:14 NASB

Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, rejoice!

Philippians 4:4 

Sharing is caring 

Simon, Simon, behold, Satan has demanded permission to sift you like wheat;  but I have prayed for you, that your faith may not fail; and you, when once you have turned again, strengthen your brothers.”

Luke 22:31‭-‬32 NASB

I was given this text days ago and wasn’t sure the message He wanted me to share behind it until just now. 

Last night I felt led to share some of the trials that my husband and I are currently (see here) in. As I was writing I knew this would bless others as well as honor God with what He’s doing in our lives. 

God is good. Always. He is working ALL things for GOOD, for those who love Him and are called for His purpose (paraphrase Romans 8:28). 

My marriage has absolutely been through a season of sifting and after reading about how they sifted wheat in the old days I couldn’t be more positive that this passage is genuinely what we’ve been going through. And if I am to be His Light and Shine His love to others lost in the darkness then I’ve got to get real when I’m knee deep in the muck and mire. 

Not in anger or pain but in gratitude that no matter what this flesh tries to bind me to my eyes and heart are always going to refocus and get back on my God. And because of that I TRUST in HIM and HIS promises. So I share. I share so others lost in the muck see that they too can find their hope in Christ, even though it seems they may have failed Him. 

Let your light shine before men in such a way that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father who is in heaven.

Matthew 5:16 NASB

If you are currently in the muck know that I have prayed for you to focus your eyes back on your Father. Focus your heart back on Him who Loves you. 

God is Good. Always. Trust Him. You have not been forsaken. 

What shall we Do? 

What will we do in times like this? 

Are you seated in Christ? 

Have you been born again? 

Therefore if you have been raised up with Christ, keep seeking the things above, where Christ is, seated at the right hand of God. Set your mind on the things above, not on the things that are on earth.

Colossians 3:1‭-‬2 NASB

Our instructions are clear. 

My son, do not forget my teaching, But let your heart keep my commandments; For length of days and years of life And peace they will add to you. Do not let kindness and truth leave you; Bind them around your neck, Write them on the tablet of your heart. So you will find favor and good repute In the sight of God and man. Trust in the Lord with all your heart And do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He will make your paths straight. Do not be wise in your own eyes; Fear the Lord and turn away from evil. It will be healing to your body And refreshment to your bones.

Proverbs 3:1‭-‬8 NASB

Lastly, hold firm to the Truth. 

These things I have spoken to you, so that in Me you may have peace. In the world you have tribulation, but take courage; I have overcome the world.”

John 16:33 NASB

He knows my ways 

I dream intense dreams. Ones that linger throughout my mind during the day. I’ve dreamt of things to come and have received many messages in them. 

Recently I have been blessed amongst the chaos of my dreams. 

Once I was so drunk I could barely see and someone proceeded to tell me about how the “Universe” wanted me to do something or other and I interrupted her and said “I appreciate the gesture but I live for Jesus Christ not the universe so you just wasting your words”. 

Last night there were animals attacking and terror all around. As I sat in a room with a father and a son the father was so hard on his child using the scripture to condemn him. When he was done I could see the hurt in the child. I held him and whispered “God is Spirit therefore His Words are meant to be read as Spirit. Let go of what was just spoken and read what your Heavenly Father says”. The child began to search the scriptures and joy and happiness came back to his face. 

Search me, O God, and know my heart; Try me and know my anxious thoughts;

Psalms 139:23 NASB

I share this with you because God shows me that amongst the world, amongst the mistakes, the chaos, the attacks by the letter He has searched my heart and knows my ways. In my dreams I confess Him always. 

“Therefore everyone who confesses Me before men, I will also confess him before My Father who is in heaven.

Matthew 10:32 NASB

His message is still the same as when I began writing again. Continue to seek Him first. He will guide our Ways. He will comfort our hearts. He will show us who we are in Him. 

I pray you have eyes to see your true heart. Your true Father. I pray you remember who you are. 

Sons and Daughters, no longer slaves


This morning I felt the urge to write. I have so much information coming in that I have to pour it out so that I can continue to have more poured in. So I asked my Papa where to read, to make this as simple as possible. More of your Word and less of mine. This is where He led me: Galatians 4 Sonship of Christ Paul is talking about how even before Christ came they were sons, but were children in their knowing so they appeared to others and themselves as slaves. Then Christ came being born under the law and those who believed would gain their adoption as sons. Now this has been taught that we were never sons and daughters but have been adopted, but that’s NOT what this text says. Verse 3 says “So also we, while we were children, were held in bondage (lies) under the elemental things of the world (law). This adoption is into the Body of Christ, not to be adopted as a child, we were already sons but lacked maturity of the knowledge of who they truly were.

But what I am pressed to write about isn’t about them, it’s about US. You and I. Paul tells us in verse 6: Because you ARE sons, God has sent forth the Spirit of His Son into our hearts, crying, “Abba! Father!” 7) THEREFORE you are NO longer a slave, but a SON; and if a SON, then an heir through God.

I ask that you read this passage, I am reading from the NASB version, pray and ask that God reveal His truth to you about your TRUE identity. We all CLAIM that we agree we are Sons and Daughters but the reality is we are behaving as slaves. We are not slaves, we are Sons and Daughters and co-heirs with Christ through God. We are the manifestation of the living God, if we believe we are. But so few do. So they are trapped by the elementals of this world.

Praying for you and I to truly begin to walk out in the reality of who we are. We are FREE from SIN. We do not have to be slaves to it. We have the SPIRIT OF JESUS IN US. HE is GREATER than anything this WORLD will ever be.

~sometimes I just gotta write~

“If you start with the negative it’ll never work.”


Delight yourself in the LORD; and He will give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to Him, and He will do it. Psalm 37:4,5

As of lately this verse is what comes to mind each night before I lay my head down. This morning I woke up and the message I heard within my Spirit: “If you start with the negative it’ll never work.” Then I heard the chorus from Lamb of God by Tenth Avenue North “You are Holy, You are Worthy, You are Holy, You’re the Lamb of God”

The message was pertaining to the Gospel, aka the Good News of Jesus Christ. If we tell everyone all the things that will happen to them by not choosing God it’ll never work. God is LOVE. Perfect LOVE casts out fear. So why do we believe that scaring people will cause them to seek out our God?

Have you ever seen the original kids movie Monsters Inc.? In this movie the monsters scare kids nightly to get power for their world. They have a power shortage until they realized “accidently” that laughter held more power than fear.

Think about this, a children’s movie truly holds the key to evangelism. LOVE is the GREATEST of all. If we LOVE people, tell them all the things that we LOVE about God, about being Gods children. And most importantly LOVE people exactly where they are, I can guarantee there will be a higher chance of them desiring what we have, God.

I love quoting Todd White from Father of Lights, “If they can’t see Christ in you, they don’t want what you have bro!”

Now I’m not saying that we should only tell them about the amazing Joy and unexplainable peace that we attain when we become One with Christ, we need to equip those whom we lead to the Cross. They are our sheep on loan from the Father. We need to be great Shepherds, but as the message says: “if you start out with the negative, it’ll never work.”

It’s time that we begin delighting ourselves in the LORD. We need to take great pleasure in Jesus, the Word, God, the Holy Spirit, and then we can begin to love those in the dark.

I want to end with this exhortation, how many of you can honestly say you are Free from Sin? How many of you can honestly say I no longer have Sin in me, nor will I ever because I am 100% forgiven, for Eternity? How many of you can honestly say you no longer suffer from depression because you have the desires of your heart fulfilled?

If you’re unable to say these things then you may need to acknowledge that you don’t believe that Jesus Christ completed the work at the Cross. His Blood paid our debt, if He truly lives IN you then you KNOW that you are completely forgiven, and this my friends brings TRUE FREEDOM!

Believe God: Delight yourselves in the LORD, and He WILL give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to Him, and He will do it. – True Story! I’m living proof!

~sometimes I just gotta write~

My people are destroyed from lack of knowledge…

Last night as I left bible study I thought ‘ok, how do I explain what I am learning’ right then the very first study I ever took ‘Lies women believe’ came to mind. We were taught that by Eve changing what God had actually said displayed her lack of knowledge, and we know from Hosea 4:6 that God says His people die from lack of knowledge. Which is exactly what happened in the garden; her misinterpretation of what God had actually said, opened up the door for darkness, for death.

Now we move on to Moses. God gave Moses 10 commandments….Moses gave us numerous amounts of laws. Many that contradict the original Law given by God. And we know that Jesus says in Matthew 5:17 that He came to fulfill the Law. But wait doesn’t the law of Moses say that a woman caught in adultery should be stoned? Yet, Jesus didn’t fulfill that law did He? So it would ‘appear’ there is a contradiction.

This is not a contradiction because Moses law is not the Law that Jesus is speaking of when He said He came to fulfill that Law. Also, it was Moses who gave the people his interpretation of what adultery is. God is Spirit, and therefore His ways are not understood by man, you and I must have the mind of Christ, given through the Holy Spirit to understand what is happening here. Adultery is spoken many times throughout scripture as spiritual adultery, cheating on God with other gods, with idols.

Within the 10 commandments God says “Thou shall NOT kill” yet the law of Moses says kill kill kill. Why is THIS not seen? Again, because you must have eyes to see. Eyes given through the Light of Christ to Shine upon the Bread of Life (the Word). John 1:17 says that the Law was given through Moses; Grace AND Truth came through Jesus Christ. How many times in Matthew 5 does Jesus point out the correct teaching of the Law given? He starts by saying “you have heard, but I tell you” Which do we go by? Hopefully we go by what Jesus says, because Jesus is the exact representation of the Father (Hebrews 1). And as it says in Hebrews 3 Moses was a faithful servant of the Fathers House, but Christ is a faithful Son over God’s house. And we are His house.

Which is greater a Son or a Servant? Exactly. I want to be a Daughter not a Servant. But I choose to be a bondservant of Jesus Christ. There is a difference, and that will have to be explained more in a different blog. There is so much I am learning, so bare with me as I try and explain some of this via my blog.

Father God, I come to you now on behalf of the one reading this post. I ask that you enlighten them Father, open their eyes so they may see the Truth that Your Son Jesus gave to us, your children. I pray that they are able to seek out YOUR truth with YOUR Spirit. Thank you Father for choosing me to be in Your family. I love you and bless you! In Jesus Name, Amen!

Believe the Unbelievable


Just as you received Jesus Christ Jesus as our Lord, continue to live in Him, rooted and built up in Him, strengthened in the Faith as you were taught, and overflow with thankfulness. – Colossians 2:6

A few years back I began to truly resent my husband. I felt he was keeping me back from serving the Lord radically. Our church at the time was teaching a series titled ‘ROOTS’, the picture above is the picture they used. Each week I would see this picture and I resonated with it so deeply. Trees have always been apart of my life. But there was something about this one that just spoke so loudly to me. A few weeks into the series I began drawing the picture above while the pastor spoke. (I have the gift of ADD so I can totally listen and draw at the same time.) As I began to draw the white path I heard my Papa’s voice “you need only be still, I will bring them to you”. I began to cry, as I usually do when I hear Him so clearly.

Later I asked my husband to get me a copy of this picture (he worked with the media department), and I had it printed and it’s a book mark within my bible. What is even more “God like” is the tree resembles the tree planted for my brother in 1999 after his passing. It grew exactly as this picture with one branch off to the side. Image

The girl sitting next to the tree, as well looks like myself. Now these are all ‘coincidences’ sure. But when you believe GOD, and the things that He tells us that His ways are higher than ours. That He is outside of time, and knows the hairs on our head, you (or at least I) begin to see Him in every detail of your life. I begin to trust that He knew that picture would resonate with me because He chose to place that within my heart and have the one who design the picture to make it exactly as it is. He grew the tree that was planted in memory of my brother, and He spoke to me through that picture.

Last night my heart smiled when my very favorite teacher described me as one who believes firmly in the super natural. This morning as we discussed more details about the ministry she has asked me to be apart of she said how she loved that moment when she was telling her friend who grew up in the church about me. I quoted John 4:23,24 His true worshipers will worship in Truth and Spirit.  

This brings me to the reason I started this blog. After God spoke those words to me that he would bring them to me, I was able to get out of His way and allow Him to work in my life and my husbands. It’s been almost 3 years since that moment, and I am truly seeing the fruit of trusting Him. I am apart of two ministries that speak to me so deeply. One is geared towards the freedom of Gods women, and the other is geared towards orphans and those who have never heard the gospel. James 1:27 says: Religion that our Father accepts as pure and faultless is this: to look after orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself from being polluted by the world. As I finished writing this I looked at the time and it is 12:34pm – what my heart hears is this “it’s as easy as 1234”

He has kept His promise and brought amazing people to me, and has set me upon a rock, and placed a new song within my mouth. I believe in the unbelievable which keeps me from being polluted by the world. I live in the world but God willing I will not become of the world. I can’t help but ask if you can say the same? Do you blow off the things that seem just too far fetched to be from God? Do you continue to pray the same prayers because you believe He isn’t hearing you? If you’re heart is in the prayer, then He has heard you. Being a persistent widow is ok, but being a person of unbelief isn’t. Hebrews 3:7-19 emphasis on 19 says that those who were not able to enter were because of their unbelief.

Friends, God does not want any of us to perish. He GAVE us His Son to take the pain of separation. We are no longer unavailable to God, if ONLY we would BELIEVE. So I pray to continue to share with you these unusual connections that I have with my Papa in hopes to encourage your belief in the unbelievable, and help you to come out of the World and into what is yours. All that is Christ’s has been given to us, if only we would BELIEVE!

New Commandment?


Do you KNOW that ALL of your sins have been paid for? Forgiven? No wrath will come upon those who believe in their hearts Jesus is Lord and GOD raised Him from death, confess with their mouth these beliefs? (Romans 10:9,10) when this true conversion comes then we begin to live with the power of God within us, as we OBEY the commands of Jesus. They are LOVE, and GIVE. Give LOVE in whatever form that is that they need. We place OTHERS ABOVE ourselves.


We FORGIVE everyone who hurt US and everyone who continues to hurt us. This is a forever thing. This is a NEW (yet old) Commandment given to us.

My dear friends, I am not writing to give you a new commandment. It is the same one you were first given, and it is the message you heard. But it really is a new commandment, and you know its TRUE meaning, just as Christ does. You can see the darkness fading away and the TRUE Light already shining.

If we claim to be in the Light and hate someone, we are still in the dark. But if we love others, we are in the light, and we don’t cause problems for them. If we hate others, we are living and walking in the dark. We don’t know where we are going, because we can’t see in the dark. 1John 2:7-11 CEV

It IS possible and there are two men in the bible that have forgiven AS they were being murdered. Do you know their names?

Here’s the key, they BOTH were filled with the Holy Spirit of God. We need to ask for MORE of God’s power each day, everyday,  and every situation. Its only by being ONE with the Father that we can do anything.

image I am the Vine and you are the branches. If you stay joined to me and I stay joined to you, then you will produce lots of fruit. John 15:5

Friends, there is too much at stake to carry around this bitterness within us. Jesus hung on the cross and asked the Father to forgive US for what we have done. Stephan asked that their sins not be counted against them, AS they were stoning him. And what did he see? Jesus STANDING in the Throne room. (see ACTS 7:54-8:1)

What do we do when someone comes up to speak at a conference that we have great honor for? That’s right we STAND. Jesus showed Stephan great honor by standing for him.

This is what we ALL should desire, for Jesus, Son of God to stand when He sees us because we have taken His Life literal and choose to become the ones who reflect HIS IMAGE in ALL areas of our life. There is too much unforgiveness and it is time that we call on the ONLY ONE who can empower us to forgive those who hurt us daily. We must ask that God pour out HIS Spirit and reveal to us the dark areas of our hearts.

Not because we fear our salvation. That is already ours. No because our LOVE and HONOR for Jesus is so GREAT nothing in this life is worth more. May we continue to die to ourselves and may His Holy Spirit continue to be poured into us. Each day may we rise asking God what we can do for HIS Kingdom. How can we be the change that He desires in our communities? And then we must realize that we NEED to ask Him every day, all day, for MORE, MORE, MORE, of HIM. ALWAYS SEEK MORE!

~sometimes I just gotta write~