Live by Faith, makes life sweeter

Numbers have always been used by God to speak to me. There are several passages throughout the Bible that are specific numbers that have such specific meaning to my life. This is one of them.

Keep me as the apple of the eye; Hide me in the shadow of Your wings
Psalms 17:8 NASB

I heard someone speak and say “You are the apple of God’s eye, you’re HIS girl” and I thought ‘imagine if that were true’.

See I was never a daddy’s girl. My dad and I were a lot alike therefore we battled for control. So to be the apple of my Daddy’s eye was foriegn to me. God knew this….. and made sure I would believe this when it was spoken. Because when I googled it to find out where it was written the numbers 17:8 is my birthdate.

See those without faith see that as a coincidence. I know my God had His hand in making sure those were the exact numbers so when my untrusting heart heard those precious words I would absolutely believe that I am indeed the apple of Gods eye.

I pray today you begin to believe the messages He sends you. I pray you believe that you are so special to God that He would indeed make sure hundreds of years ago specific numbers would be placed exactly where He needed them to say “Yup that’s specifically for you”

Trust His love for you. It’ll change your life.

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Words

Words…

I love them so much. I imagine most writers do. They hold the power within them to catapult you from your chair into a world filled with mysterious creatures and wonder.

They also hold the power to crush ones soul. So many words are written for all the world to see. The internet has become an anchor in most homes. A necessity almost. Our young children have access to anything and everyone with just one click.

And yet…..the words that we see and read come from someone. Someone sitting behind the co.puter or their cell phone within their fingers, creating words by putting letters together. Possibly never even considering the impact that those words may have on another soul.

Words can bring LIFE to a heart that is barely hanging on. Words can bring HOPE when there seems to be none left.

Your WORDS matter. My WORDS matter. YOU MATTER.

One simple change. One word removed and the entire paragraph changes.

YOU MATTER.

Who you are, what you believe, how you behave. It ALL matters. The things that you say, think, and write MATTER.

Someone somewhere will read what was written and an impact is made. Someone will over hear what you say and an impact is made.

I know we go through life only focusing on US and how what we do or say impacts US. But perhaps, even just for today. Consider the words you allow to be spoken. Consider the words you believe. Consider the words you write.

Because someone, somewhere, will be impacted by YOU and the WORDS you leave behind.

Be a friend who loves

I love. I love hard and I love completely. I’m a momma bear at heart and have always felt the need to stand up for others whose voice isn’t quite there yet.

This doesn’t always turn out well for me, as you can imagine. But one thing it has done over the last few years is allowed me to get to know who I really am.

And I am someone who when I love you, it’s a fierce kind of love. I will always be in your corner, I will always speak Truth to you and OVER you. I will tell you when you’re wrong.

Let’s hold on that for just a moment.

I will tell you when you’re wrong.

This is something that “friends” ought to be able to do, in love.

If you’re most trusted friend can’t tell you when you’re in your flesh or being irrational, then I have to ask are they REALLY your friends?

A true friend wants you to EVOLVE into the best version of you possible. But if you’re never challenged to grow or reevaluate something that causes yourself or another person angst, then are we really loving each other?

Today I have a lot on my mind because I feel it’s important as a friend to always speak Truth, do so after praying for the right words, and do so after God prompts you to speak. But always be in your truth, but be willing to listen when someone speaks theirs.

And if someone ever offers correction, in LOVE, be a friend back and consider the source before the flesh reacts.

Today’s ramblings 😊

Ramblings 

When one gets married divorce is not usually considered. But then the days go on and trouble begins, conversations stop, and before you know it you’re sleeping in different rooms. 

Sometimes there’s just no coming back from the lack of trust, security, and friendship. Sometimes it seems like the only way to feel whole again is to let go of what causes you to feel so alone. 

Divorce is awful. It’s silent heartache. It’s continued questions of what’s next. 

But sometimes it’s also rebirth. Freedom from what was killing you. 

Never leave a marriage unless you feel God has released you, that way the devil can never condemn you through others opinions. 

And remember your path is between you & God. He knows whose His are. 

Like a lion is NOT a Lion.

Be of sober spirit, be on the alert. Your adversary, the devil, prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour.

1 Peter 5:8 NASB 

This passage is almost always associated with attacks when weak. But lately it’s been coming to mind for so much more than that, which I always heed as a warning. This morning I was given additional texts so here I am sharing what’s been given. Bare with me as I attempt to piece this together. 

As you see I bold the like a roaring lion, when a lion roars it is essentially speaking. And those that are near LISTEN intently. Another word I want to point out is it says “LIKE” a roaring lion. Why is this so important to notice? 

No wonder, for even Satan disguises himself as an angel of light.

2 Corinthians 11:14 

Because Satan, the Devil, disguises himself as the Light, Jesus, GOD. When he sees a weak prey he then looks to devour him by the things that he SAYS. He will speak directly to your pain. How can he know your pain so perfectly? Because he orchestrated it of course.

 The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I came that they may have life, and have it abundantly.

John 10:10 NASB 

So what happens when he gets in your ear, in your pain and weakness? This is why Peter warns to be be SOBER & on ALERT because he will come to you as a messenger of light. To help you, he will speak scriptures to you and guide you to healing. You might be wondering why in the world would Satan want me to know scriptures? Because if he can’t twist them and enslave you then you begin to worship HIM as God, his whole purpose in life is to be seen as God. What better way than through scriptures. 

We are warned repeatedly about false teachers, apostles and prophets. Do you think they will use anything other than what you consider the “WORD”? 

Paul continues in 1 Corinthians 11 telling the people how they are the ones who accepted this enslaving. 

For you tolerate it if anyone enslaves you, anyone devours you, anyone takes advantage of you, anyone exalts himself, anyone hits you in the face.

2 Corinthians 11:20 NASB

We see the same thing happening to the Galatians. 

You foolish Galatians, who has bewitched you, before whose eyes Jesus Christ was publicly portrayed as crucified?

Galatians 3:1 NASB 

They too believed in what someone had told them. Let’s continue in Galatians to see what they had believed. 

This is the only thing I want to find out from you: did you receive the Spirit by the works of the Law, or by hearing with faith? Are you so foolish? Having begun by the Spirit, are you now being perfected by the flesh? Did you suffer so many things in vain-if indeed it was in vain? So then, does He who provides you with the Spirit and works miracles among you, do it by the works of the Law, or by hearing with faith?

Galatians 3:2‭-‬5 NASB

Interesting. It appears that they had been freed and then believed they must WORK to finish what Jesus had done. 

Let’s jump to Timothy and see what Paul has to say. 

Alexander the coppersmith did me much harm; the Lord will repay him according to his deeds. Be on guard against him yourself, for he vigorously opposed our teaching.  At my first defense no one supported me, but all deserted me; may it not be counted against them. But the Lord stood with me and strengthened me, so that through me the proclamation might be fully accomplished, and that all the Gentiles might hear; and I was rescued out of the lion’s mouth. The Lord will rescue me from every evil deed, and will bring me safely to His heavenly kingdom; to Him be the glory forever and ever. Amen.

2 Timothy 4:14‭-‬18 

Be of sober spirit, be on the alert. Your adversary, the devil, prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour.

1 Peter 5:8 NASB 

Alexander did much harm to Paul by vigorously opposing the teaching of FREEDOM IN CHRIST. Paul was rescused out of the MOUTH of the LION. From the words of SATAN. Paul warns them to be on guard. Same meaning as be on alert. 

Friends, I share this with you today because so many are falling prey to worshiping Satan disguised as God. You’re not sober in mind, you’re riddled with idols therefore you’re unable to see and hear the Lord through them. You’re doubleminded and enslaved to your flesh. You’ve been slapped in the face and have accepted it. 

Be FREE from your flesh. Walk in your freedom and know what the Spirit of TRUTH says about WHO YOU ARE. 

I urge you to read the Book of JUDE, understand that this book is a warning to the Church today. Then I urge you to read the letters to the churches in Revelations. What I write is not my opinion but what is happening to the children of God, today. They have been bewitched. 

Tribulation 

You also became imitators of us and of the Lord, having received the word in much tribulation with the joy of the Holy Spirit, so that you became an example to all the believers in Macedonia and in Achaia.

1 Thessalonians 1:6‭-‬7 NASB

Have you ever been ministering/mentoring a new believer and when they begin to joyfully walk in the Word that was given to them they immediately had trials thrust upon them? 

We’re always ready to blame the enemy for these trials. I’m so guilty of this. I just did this a couple days ago. But today as I began reading this jumped out at me. And quickly I was reminded of the time when I first came boldly to the Lord and how many trials were thrown at me. I blamed the enemy believing he was trying to steal my joy, cause me to stumble. Never did I consider that these trials were placed to strengthen me and allow be to become an example to other believers. 

Which explains why we rejoice in ALL things. Because we know that the Lord is strengthening us. There’s no storm or trial too big to change how this story ends. 

Just a little thought from my morning study. 

Be blessed. 

I love Jesus! 

I love Jesus so much. I truly get overwhelmed with emotion when I think about all that He’s given me. He’s rescued me from. Taught me. Shown me. But most of all, I love Him because of who He is and who I am because of who He is. 

I didn’t grow up knowing God. It wasn’t until almost my 30s did I truly start desiring a life with Him. Even still I had no idea who Jesus really was. 

Until the day I said out loud “I don’t even know who Jesus is” I can remember where I stood in my back yard. As if God had made sure to take a snapshot of the day His baby girl was ready to know Him and Herself. 

To say getting to know Jesus was easy would be a lie. Romans 7 talks about the battle we have with our flesh and our Spirit and this battle happens witjin our mind. Unfortunately for me, and I’m assuming most, it bled out through my actions. I was so double minded holding on to my flesh and having such an agonizing death of it. 

It took almost 3 years to truly die to MYSELF, 3 years after confessing the sin of unbelief. 

My mind was always mine to take hold of. The mind of Christ is ours, it’s our PROMISE LAND. We’ve just got to believe in the PROMISES He’s given us. 

Today, I rejoice in those horrendous years. Without them I wouldn’t know the beauty that I possess today. Knowing who I AM, knowing who Jesus is, is truly the sweetest gift God can give us. 

The Promise land is ours for the taking. And today I pray if you struggle with unbelief in any area you confess and begin the process of coming to know Him as He truly is, GOD. And knowing who you are in HIM, ONE. 

I love Jesus and this is one of the many reasons why. 

Words Matter 

​My son, give attention to my words; Incline your ear to my sayings. Do not let them depart from your sight; Keep them in the midst of your heart. For they are life to those who find them And health to all their body. Watch over your heart with all diligence, For from it flow the springs of life. Put away from you a deceitful mouth And put devious speech far from you.

Proverbs 4:20‭-‬24 NASB

If His Words give life, what do you think happens when we have a deceitful mouth and devious speech? 

We must guard what we say, sing, and think. What we hear and allow to take root in our hearts and minds MATTER. 

Her sins are many…

It is a trustworthy statement, deserving full acceptance, that Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners, among whom I am foremost of all.

1 Timothy 1:15 NASB

Have you ever looked at an old picture of yourself and thought “WOW, if only people knew just how lost I was behind that smile?” 

This is my current Facebook profile picture. It came up on my ‘memories’ and I thought how appropriate for the frame they have saying “Saved by His Amazing Grace” so I posted it. 

I can’t stop looking at it with such gratitude. Knowing that in that moment I was an alcoholic stripper, having an emotional online affair with a married man, and had no idea who Jesus was. 

For this reason I say to you, her sins, which are many, have been forgiven, for she loved much; but he who is forgiven little, loves little.”

Luke 7:47 NASB

Today, 12 years later I sing His praises and rejoice at the life He redeemed me from. 

He brought me up out of the pit of destruction, out of the miry clay, And He set my feet upon a rock making my footsteps firm. He put a new song in my mouth, a song of praise to our God; Many will see and fear And will trust in the Lord .

Psalms 40:2‭-‬3 NASB

I don’t hide my past from others. I hope to never forget how far I’ve fallen. I desire to stay empathetic to those who are broken and lost in darkness. To show them that He is a Good God and desires that we ALL be saved through the blood of Jesus Christ. 

I, even I, am the one who wipes out your transgressions for My own sake, And I will not remember your sins.

Isaiah 43:25 NASB

Moreover, I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit within you; and I will remove the heart of stone from your flesh and give you a heart of flesh. I will put My Spirit within you and cause you to walk in My statutes, and you will be careful to observe My ordinances. You will live in the land that I gave to your forefathers; so you will be My people, and I will be your God. Moreover, I will save you from all your uncleanness; and I will call for the grain and multiply it, and I will not bring a famine on you.

Ezekiel 36:26‭-‬29 NASB

Then He said to her, “Your sins have been forgiven.”  And He said to the woman, “Your faith has saved you; go in peace.”

Luke 7:48‭, ‬50 NASB

He knows my ways 

I dream intense dreams. Ones that linger throughout my mind during the day. I’ve dreamt of things to come and have received many messages in them. 

Recently I have been blessed amongst the chaos of my dreams. 

Once I was so drunk I could barely see and someone proceeded to tell me about how the “Universe” wanted me to do something or other and I interrupted her and said “I appreciate the gesture but I live for Jesus Christ not the universe so you just wasting your words”. 

Last night there were animals attacking and terror all around. As I sat in a room with a father and a son the father was so hard on his child using the scripture to condemn him. When he was done I could see the hurt in the child. I held him and whispered “God is Spirit therefore His Words are meant to be read as Spirit. Let go of what was just spoken and read what your Heavenly Father says”. The child began to search the scriptures and joy and happiness came back to his face. 

Search me, O God, and know my heart; Try me and know my anxious thoughts;

Psalms 139:23 NASB

I share this with you because God shows me that amongst the world, amongst the mistakes, the chaos, the attacks by the letter He has searched my heart and knows my ways. In my dreams I confess Him always. 

“Therefore everyone who confesses Me before men, I will also confess him before My Father who is in heaven.

Matthew 10:32 NASB

His message is still the same as when I began writing again. Continue to seek Him first. He will guide our Ways. He will comfort our hearts. He will show us who we are in Him. 

I pray you have eyes to see your true heart. Your true Father. I pray you remember who you are.