It is written…

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I was once consumed with books. My home holds over 600+ and my Nook an additional 500+. Now I haven’t read them all but had hoped one day I would. Then last February during a 10 day fast from sleep and food (would catch a couple hours every 3 days or so) I had several experiences that I’ve never truly been able to explain. It has been a pivotal turning point within in my walk to say the least. During one of these days I felt as if I had a fresh baptism of the Spirit of Truth. It was pressed upon me so intensely that everything had to be truth, there couldn’t even be a partial truth spoken because one wrong word could change everything. Eve changed what God had told them and death seeped into all mankind. This is also the time when I was told that all I ever needed to leave my children was the Bible. That all the other books were pointless and would only confuse them. His Word was all I Needed.

It took me a month before I finally felt that this was true. And for almost a year now I’ve been on a fast from all other teachings. Slowly I let go of devotionals only reading ones that I felt led to. Weeding out sermons, commentaries, and everything else that watered down what was already written. And today I have never felt more mental peace and security in my life. Mainly though the clarity and confidence in what I know now is unshakable.

God has always been my teacher. He has assured the way for me to hear His Voice and I no longer need another to affirm what He has told me.

The text that inspired this over share is:

Ecclesiastes 12:12 NASB

But beyond this, my son, be warned: the writing of many books is endless, and excessive devotion to books is wearying to the body.

I remember when I first read this my selfishness rejected what it said. Today as I read these words, and see the weariness still within others who go to other books and sermons for comfort I can’t help but say “Wish I would’ve listen sooner”
It is written…Go to Him and let everything else Go.

Isaiah 26:3-4 NASB

“The steadfast of mind You will keep in perfect peace, Because he trusts in You. “Trust in the Lord forever, For in God the Lord , we have an everlasting Rock.

I encourage you to fast from all other teachings for 7 days (or more,preferably more) and only read Scripture allowing the Holy Spirit to give you understanding. Believing He will as it is written in James. Your belief changes everything and when you begin to weed out the chaff that has been planted within your mind, May you SEE who YOU truly are! Blessings friends. (Ps. Fasting even means from blogs like this.)

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Your husband is your Maker….

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‘For your husband is your Maker, Whose name is the LORD of hosts; And your Redeemer is the Holy One of Israel, Who is called the God of all the earth.” Isaiah 54:5

I’ve quoted this a lot these past few weeks. Especially when talking about the relationship between me and my husband. (pictured above)

There is a quote that one of my friends sent me years ago, before I ever fell in love with God. It says: “A woman must be so lost in God that any man must go through Him in order to find her.” This quote really changed me and my heart over the years. Today I send this same quote to my single girl friends, in hope they will see the TRUTH that lies within.

When Chadd an I were first married we were both on fire for the Lord. Then life began to snatch away the Word and put out our fire. I resented my husband and our relationship. As time went on God began to slowly reveal to me that I was in fact the problem, not Chadd. I put too much pressure on him, I expected too much from him as my husband and the father of my children. Eventually everything broke and I learned that my husband is in fact my Maker.

When I no longer put the expectation on Chadd to fill me, I was able to find fulfillment from the ONLY one capable of filling me, God. Then Chadd was able to add to the ‘overflow’ and I was able to love him exactly where he was. Which this caused him to become the man that I have yearned for all along.

This past weekend I realized just how much I truly love this man. He was away for a mens retreat and I missed him terribly. I also realized while he was away that I haven’t allowed myself to really love him. I’ve kept him at a distance, afraid that he would disappoint me. And last night when we were laying in bed, guess what happened….I felt disappointed. I became angry and hurt. What does this mean? Well it means that I didn’t get what I wanted. James 4:1,2 tell us that we quarrel because we do not get what we want. So when I begin to argue with my husband, Holy Spirit reminds me of this and I begin to allow Wisdom to bring me understanding. As Proverbs 8 describes Wisdom to be a woman, she is very gentle in the way she reminds me that I am not here to be served but to serve, and my husband in the flesh is not here to serve me but to serve others. We are a unit yes, but ultimately we are here to help bring the Kingdom of God here, not to fulfill our fleshly desires.

Ladies, I want to first pray for you. Ask that God pour out the Holy Spirit within your hearts and allow Wisdom and Understanding to come to you as it has me, gently and lovingly. God knows what we need and He does lavish us with love and affection, sometimes through a song, a friend, a book. But when the time comes He will lavish us with the fleshly love we desire. I believe it’s up to us to continue to seek God first and allow the love that others give us to be an overflow.

Remember, our Maker is our Husband.

Sons and Daughters, no longer slaves

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This morning I felt the urge to write. I have so much information coming in that I have to pour it out so that I can continue to have more poured in. So I asked my Papa where to read, to make this as simple as possible. More of your Word and less of mine. This is where He led me: Galatians 4 Sonship of Christ Paul is talking about how even before Christ came they were sons, but were children in their knowing so they appeared to others and themselves as slaves. Then Christ came being born under the law and those who believed would gain their adoption as sons. Now this has been taught that we were never sons and daughters but have been adopted, but that’s NOT what this text says. Verse 3 says “So also we, while we were children, were held in bondage (lies) under the elemental things of the world (law). This adoption is into the Body of Christ, not to be adopted as a child, we were already sons but lacked maturity of the knowledge of who they truly were.

But what I am pressed to write about isn’t about them, it’s about US. You and I. Paul tells us in verse 6: Because you ARE sons, God has sent forth the Spirit of His Son into our hearts, crying, “Abba! Father!” 7) THEREFORE you are NO longer a slave, but a SON; and if a SON, then an heir through God.

I ask that you read this passage, I am reading from the NASB version, pray and ask that God reveal His truth to you about your TRUE identity. We all CLAIM that we agree we are Sons and Daughters but the reality is we are behaving as slaves. We are not slaves, we are Sons and Daughters and co-heirs with Christ through God. We are the manifestation of the living God, if we believe we are. But so few do. So they are trapped by the elementals of this world.

Praying for you and I to truly begin to walk out in the reality of who we are. We are FREE from SIN. We do not have to be slaves to it. We have the SPIRIT OF JESUS IN US. HE is GREATER than anything this WORLD will ever be.

~sometimes I just gotta write~

Penny for your thoughts!

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How can I put into words what this weekend was like? This is what was joked about early in the morning as we stand around simmering coals while worshipping our Lord and Savior, surrounded by the heavenly Angels, moments after proclaiming the names of those that we are in agreement will be proclaiming that Jesus is Lord.

This weekend I finally came together and met face to face the family that God has created for me first in Spirit, and manifested via Facebook. Ultimately we are the family of the Great I AM….physically we are the family of I AM MBK (see www.MBKinternational.com).

We didn’t ask what denomination we were from, we simply asked is Jesus Christ Lord in your life and with a resounding YES our souls united and we were living out ACTS. Whatever the other needed we gladly gave, we broke bread, we sang praise, we prayed, we cried, we confessed, we laid hands, we welcomed the Holy Spirit, and felt the Heavenly Presence of the Angels around us. We celebrated Sabbath the way God intended and welcomed in over 20 souls in Jesus Name.

But what’s so beautiful is this morning God walked me through all of it in a sermon to my daughter. As we were walking through the camp site picking up the trash left behind she found a penny and we both repeated the old saying “See a penny pick it up and all day long you’ll have good luck.” She then began to say what the “world” has added to this rhyme. “Brighton (her brother) says if you see a penny on tales….” I immediately finished her statement  with a “yes honey I know, but can I tell you something…..” and then He began…. (btw she said she didn’t believe that anyway and always picked it up…that’s my girl)

They say if it’s on heads it’s good luck, and if it’s on tales it’s bad luck so don’t pick it up. Does the side of the penny take away the value of the penny? She answered No of course. So if I pick it up on heads I’ve gained a penny, if I pick it up on tales I’m still up a penny. But if the penny is on tales and I walk away I’m without a penny. How is it that I have gained any kind of luck if walking away from the money leaves me without? It seems to me that the LIE that was placed in this old saying has convinced us that since it’s just a penny, which we all know that’s not a lot of money, it’s not worth the chance of getting bad luck. However say there are 2 people and one lives by the original sayings and picks up all 50 pennies that she walks by, and then there is a boy that only picks the 25 that are heads up. Which of those two would have the higher value of money? Seems to me that this little white lie has caused us to walk away from something worth more than nothing, and by doing so the one without luck is in fact the one who thinks everything has to be a certain way before it will bring true value. If only we saw how this leaked into our lives and how many treasures we have walked away from because the package didn’t appear the way we wanted it. Sounds a lot like the way the Jews didn’t like the way the Messiah appeared and decided His treasure was worthless and chose to kill him instead.

How does this tie into this weekend? Well here is how….because of the different levels of Faith that were gathered there were some teachings that were being spoken about that some couldn’t understand. Does this mean that what was taught wasn’t true….well that all depends on how you receive truth….do you strictly gain knowledge only from Scripture? Or do you believe God when He says in Scripture that ALL of GODS CREATION proclaims Gods GLORY? Because I am Gods Creation and I am made in the image of God and if I am being given revelation by God through the trees that are surrounding me does that make what I am saying less valuable because this exact moment isn’t detailed in the Bible? Or would I gain something if I were to believe that GOD uses HIS CREATION to proclaim HIS Glory? Am I getting caught up in the way something is packaged or am I allowing GOD to use ALL of HIS CREATION to reflect and proclaim HIM? Am I allowing the Spirit of TRUTH to be MY detector….do I even BELIEVE that I CAN test the SPIRITS? DO I EVEN BELIEVE THE BIBLE FOR THAT MATTER?

This weekend I became a RICH woman. I opened my mind and Spirit up to God and allowed HIM to be MY sifter and what HE wanted me to receive He has placed within HIS SPIRIT within ME. At the end of the day JESUS CHRIST is MY LORD and SAVIOR and the SPIRIT OF GOD LIVES IN ME AND HE GIVES ME TRUTH AND I WILL NEVER BE THE SAME AGAIN. THIS WEEKEND I BECAME THE CHURCH WITH OTHERS OF THE CHURCH AND I PRAY THAT I NEVER EVER SHUT THE DOOR ON ANY OF GODS MESSENGERS. I love every moment of this weekend. Heads or Tales doesn’t matter because the VALUE is the SAME! Each way I gain more and more of Jesus Christ! I am a RICH RICH WOMAN.

What about you?

~sometimes I just gotta write~

Whose foundation are you building on?

Did you know that the stone Jasper mentioned in Revelations 21 is a RED colored stone? 21:11 says it’s ‘clear as crystal‘ (yup that totally caught my attention in 2008 when I opened the bible for the 1st time…ya I’m vain lol) then vs 18 ‘the wall is made of jasper, pure as gold, as pure as glass‘ (there I am again…well the meaning of my name lol) lastly and I find the most intriguing is found in verse 19: The foundations of the city walls were decorated with every kind of precious stone. The FIRST foundation was jasper….

Jesus is the FOUNDATION of our Eternal houses. His BLOOD is the Only way to even begin seeking a relationship with God. Understanding the depth of LOVE that He has for us, that He chose to be lowered from His royal position and became a man. Then this same man that gave it all up loved and taught us everything about the Father…and then we put Him on the Cross to die a horrific death. And as He hung there between two criminals; Jesus said, “Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing” Luke 23:34. And you know what….God promises that anything we ask of Him He will do…if we forgive others He will forgive us. Therefore, Jesus’ life and death was all for US, and we ARE FORGIVEN. PERIOD.

But woe to the one who keeps on sinning after they know the truth. Hebrews 10:26 warns those that there is nothing left to sacrifice for you, and all you have to look forward to is a fiery death. Harsh, I know….True though. Whether you want to believe it or not……if you want salvation….then it’s ALL of Gods Word or it’s NONE.

So I ask you….whose foundation are you building on? Because we all are.

He still loves….me

Sometimes I hate myself. I mean really hate myself. When I was a kid I used to cut myself and I didn’t care what scars I left on my body. Today as an adult this still manifests itself is in the things I tell myself.

The scary part for me is the way my thoughts can really take over and pour out into this world. I’m a mother so I have 4 children that will and are affected by my behavior. But specifically I have 2 children that have already lost a father to suicide, and when I get in these self-hatred states I do hope to die. I rationalies that Chadd would do a much better job at parenting, and his family have everything I ever wanted as a kid so they will be fine. God loves them more than I do, I’m just messing everything up anyway.

Earlier as I was going through these lies I hit my Facebook application and this is the picture I saw.

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This hit an area that I was trying to destroy. SO naturally I shut my Facebook down and started to provoke an argument with my husband. Thankfully, he stood firm and prayed and told me I was being attacked…and I of course like a hurt person usually does responded with more hurtful things. This kind of sickness I have struggled with all of my life. I am a self-healer and a self-hurter. What has to stop is the way I allow this anger and self-destruction out on my husband. I sat on my bed and thought ok what do I read. My bible sat near me, but like anyone who is filled with this kind of evil they don’t want to read God’s Word. Personally I know that’s exactly what I have to do though. God’s Word is the ONLY WAY to destroy what lies are destroying our inner peace. But I have a real fear of opening God’s Word when I’m like this. I’m afraid I won’t be able to stop from speaking evil against what I read…and blasphemy the Spirit. SO I stay away from it…which isn’t good.

So I opened the next best thing the book that my mentor wrote “Perfect Love” She equips me with the tools I need. The only other author that has affected my heart this way has been Beth Moore. Both women write for Jesus. Both women write what they KNOW works because ONE it’s God’s Word, TWO they’ve personally experienced it, and THREE they are anointed to heal the broken hearted, to set the captives free, the Spirit of the Lord is upon these women. So here is the page I opened to and the order in which my God allowed my poisoned heart to read.

Chapter 9 pg 75 “Perfect Love Buys Us Back”

Did you know that you are a slave? We are all slaves to something. We are either a slave to sin if we have not yet received Jesus Christ as our personal savior, or we are slaves to righteousness, when we give our life to Jesus. As that moment because of Christ’s sacrifice, His blood covers our sin once and for all and He covers us with His righteousness. We are made right before the eyes of a perfect God, not because of anything that we did, only because of what Jesus did on the cross.

(page flipped to page 78 – my birth year that I happen to have a heart around in the book) So if you are a born again and you are still struggling with some old habits, or hang ups and not really understanding why, it is because you need to work to renew your mind daily in the truths in God’s Word to break those habits and strongholds for good.

Girlfriend, hear my heart here, you must never believe the lies that the enemy will tell you, lies like; “Oh, you must not even be saved or you wouldn’t think like this anymore” or “ if you were really saved, God would have delivered you from this by now” or “no other Christian thinks like this”. (pg79) You see, the enemy loves to get God’s children believing that they were not truly bought from sin and the devil’s grasp for good, and that they are still in the devil’s chains. It is simply not true! The truth is, the second that you make Jesus Lord, you belong to God and satan has no true control over you anymore. The only power that he has is what you freely give him. Sin does not have power over you; you just need to get your stubborn heart to line up with God’s Word and believe it!

This is when I turned on my laptop and began writing. This is how I live out Revelation 12:10,11. In order for me to hurl down my accuser I write and confess and become as transparent as I possibly can. Why? Well…because I receive life when I read another’s transparency through their current struggles, and I want another to see that although I am redeemed in Christ Jesus, I struggle daily with my sanity. I struggle daily with my tongue (or fingers), I struggle daily if I am truly saved. I am a real person with real problems wanting to reach as many real people as I can with a Real solution. Jesus.

If you love to read like I do, and want authentic biblical teaching then please go to www.unforsakenministries.com and buy Mo Mydlo’s books. You won’t be disappointed.

Until next melt down…. just kidding.

Take {2} on my testimony

It’s been awhile since I’ve posted. God’s had me in a growing moment, and had I written two days ago I would’ve told you that I was positive He was disappointed in my behavior. And maybe He was, what He wasn’t disappointed in was my heart. I say this cautiously because I don’t want to be boastful. The reason I feel He has been pleased with my heart is because of the blessings He has poured out on me these last two days. There is nothing like thinking God is upset with you to have Him pour out LOVE on you like there’s no tomorrow. Love in ways that ONLY GOD could know your heart would respond to. Friends I pray that YOU experience that Presence of the Lord so intensely that you will never doubt how much God LOVES YOU!

Tonight I was blessed to give my testimony at the church that I had recently left. Talk about a HUGE personal blessing. See this is the HOME where He placed me to pour out His Spirit on me. He watered me through these people, and I still feel strange not being there at times. But I know God is doing something within our family that we wouldn’t have had done if we stayed.

Anyway, tonight I spoke about my life before Christ for the first time (in front of a group). Then I spoke about my life after Christ. I have to tell you that the response I felt was gratitude, for my authenticity. The Presence of God is with me as I write these words and I want you to know that I am so thankful that I lived every moment of my life the way I did. God has already gone ahead of me and prepared everything in advance. All I have to do is show up. He will do the rest.

Two hours before I was supposed to leave I found out that I needed to ADD 10 minutes to what I had already prepared. Wanted to share what God placed on my heart to share, and if you’ve read the post titled “My foundation is set” then you’ve read the life after Christ. If you’re interested here is some of the life before.

First memory I have was when I was 5, my Uncle came tearing around a corner almost running over me, my brothers, uncle, and grandmother one terrifying morning. I know it was morning because I had to continue to go to school that day, of course being told not to speak of what happened. This was the family code that I’m sure many of you had also. As the years went on I kept other secrets. Like being sexually involved with other kids, being molested by a family member, being hated and bullied in school. Having the entire girls bathroom written about me, teachers even joining in on the cruelty. I kept it all in. Never speaking about it…only writing in my journals.

Eventually all these secrets became too much, the loneliness I felt was more than my young heart could take and at the age of 12 I began trying to find ways to end my life. This continued for 3 years until I almost succeeded. I’ll never forget this day. It was unlike any other I could remember….it was perfect. I laughed continually with my best friends, got along with my parents, and felt an inner peace I hadn’t in years. As the sun was going down I had said this is it. This is how I want it all to end. SO I kissed my parents goodnight went in and got the prescribed sleeping pills I had stolen from my dad and began taking them. By the 10th one I started gagging. I can still remember the taste of the sweet tea mixing with the pills.

I don’t know why I chose to lay down and watch the last few minutes of Coach on tv, but I do know that it saved my life. Instantly I passed out and woke up 3 days later in the hospital. My leg had been somehow jammed down in the couch and I lost circulation for so long I was unable to walk properly for a few weeks. Today, I am positive that my guardian Angel made sure I would stay put on that couch so my mother and father would see me when they woke up before work.

Anyway, something shifted in me that day that I woke up. I knew there was a reason I had lived…again I don’t know how I know this, I just did. I wish I could tell you that I gave my life to Jesus at 15 and spent that last 20 years serving Him. Unfortunately, I wasn’t raised in a home where Jesus was ever mentioned unless it someone was cursing. I drudged through the next few years of high school, living up the rumors others started about me at 15. I desperately tried to fill that hole inside of me with boys, drugs, cutting, anger, anything that would give me some kind of “fix”.

After high school I met my first husband and fell deep into the club scene. He sold drugs, I danced to pay for our habit, and this continued until I was 21 and our roommate was robbed at gunpoint. We decided it was time to quit the drugs and move on with our lives. I had no problem quitting the drugs, considering I was old enough to drink. Still dancing I quickly became an alcoholic. Eventually Matt and I were married and started a family. I stopped dancing for a few years, then money was tight and we decided I would dance during his off season, which happened to be a dancers season. It seemed perfect….in hindsight I see it was perfect…for the enemy. He was able to convince us that it was beneficial for me to use my body to make money. All along destroying the trust in my marriage, and continuing to destroy myself worth. As you can imagine this marriage eventually failed.

 I had met a man online, and never felt so completely in love in my life. He too was married and felt the love instantly also. Friends, this is the first time I had been deceived by Satan disguised as light. All the years of me dancing half naked drunk for men I never once was ever tempted to cheat on my husband. This relationship was formed ironically through my husband’s online gaming. The emotional affair quickly developed and there was nothing stopping us. We had never felt a love so pure and honest in our lives. The affair occurred in 2003 lasted only a few months, he lived in TN and we both agreed we couldn’t take our children from their parents. Matt asked me to come home and try and work things out, we planned for our son. And two months after he was born in 2005 Matt said he was unable to forgive me and ended our marriage.

I was devastated and did the only thing I knew to do….lost the baby weight and went back to dancing. And drinking…heavily. I couldn’t bear to see anyone I knew so I drove each night from Ocoee to Melbourne to work. Then at 3am completely drunk I would drive home. On September 26, 2006 God intervened and I ended up in a ditch after hitting a guard rail and being side swiped by a truck. Ended up in 33rd with a DUI and a LONG road to recovery. Court ordered to attend AA, but knew I desperately needed it. I tried to stay sober. Admitted I was an alcoholic and truly wanted to be free from the need to drink. I only lasted 3 months. I told myself I could control it, maintain my drinking as long as I stayed at home or only drank beer when I went out. If anyone in here has ever tried to maintain drinking you know how well this worked.

My daughter was attending Pre-K at a church and we attended often. The love this pastor gave me and my children, even after finding out I danced and had a dui was like nothing I knew before. He began tending to the soil that was so battered.

On April 30, 2009 as I was driving home from dropping my kids at their dads, I had my usual debate with God about me drinking. Only this time I heard the truth. He asked why do you have to drink? I replied I deserve it….and right then I knew that was a lie. The radio began playing Sissy’s song and I heard within my Spirit “You’re going to lose them if you do this” THEM being my kids. And that was the moment of deliverance for me. I was baptized on July 29th. Married to my husband on December 7. 2009 and have been surrending my life over to Jesus daily ever since.

For the last 5 years I have heard and said over and over again to women who were hurting and broken hearted. “You need Jesus. Cry out to Jesus. Give it to Jesus.” Can I tell you something that I have struggled with for the last 5 years since surrendering my life over to this Jesus? I had no idea who He was. I mean I had head knowledge of who He was, and I had even experienced the power of Christ within my life. But I didn’t KNOW Him, or know HOW to know Him anymore than I already did. Or most importantly….. how to destroy the lies I knew about Him. So today I want to share with you the lies that kept me from fully believing in Jesus Christ as the Son of God, and the way Satan used this to almost steal my Identity.

Jesus is First Our Lord and Savior. This many of you know. So did I. I was even baptized into this Truth….but still I doubted in this man that was also God. I was unprepared in the basics of WHO Jesus is and HOW He is Man and God. Jesus was placed in Mary’s womb by the Holy Spirit.  Matthew 1:18-25 gives the account to this, but still my mind couldn’t wrap around this. Even though I KNOW the Bible is true, something inside of me said”c’mon this is CRAZY, what if she cheated on Joseph and got pregnant.” That something inside of me is the voice of lies, aka the devil, satan, our enemy. God finally squashed this lie earlier this year, after 5 years of living for Him He opened my eyes and ears and said. “Crystal, you believe that I created this entire universe by the power of my Words, but you don’t think I can place a child inside of a woman?”  And that was it, lie destroyed with the Truth.  

Another lie that kept me from believing that Jesus is the Son of God was his baptism.   What was KEY for me to seal the truth about Jesus being fully man and fully God was what God says about sin. See the voice of lies that I listened to said “well Jesus was baptized so who knows if He actually sinned since we don’t know anything about Him”  Here’s the thing though, Jesus had to live a sinless life under the law in order to become a sacrifice blameless and pure and fulfill the law. God cannot dwell within a man when there is SIN in Him. And in Matthew 3:16 it says “As soon as Jesus was baptized, he went up out of the water. At that moment heaven was opened, and He saw the Spirit of God descending like a dove and lighting on him.” Jesus then became FULLY GOD, He had lived a life of obedience to The Father and because He was blameless without sin, God then gave His FULL AUTHORITY to Jesus, making Him The Christ, The Anointed One, The Messiah. No sacrifice was needed for Jesus because there was no sin in Him. God would not have given Jesus FULL authority had there been any sin within Him.

When we are baptized in the Name of Jesus Christ we also are forgiven for ALL of our sins, which allows GODs Holy Spirit, the Christ to now DWELL IN US. Making US as Jesus ONE WITH THE FATHER. But… this is only through the blood of Jesus Christ, which He shed for us on the cross.

These were two lies that lingered within my mind and because they were left unchecked I was led into a terrifying trap.

In 2 Timothy 3, Paul talks about the Godlessness in the Last Days. In Verses 1-5 Paul gives some pretty harsh characteristics about these “godless” people but I want to focus on Verse 5 “having a form of godliness but denying it’s POWER. Have nothing to do with them.”

Having a form of godliness but denying its POWER. Friends, we have the POWER OF GOD in us. We are One with God as Jesus, but Jesus had attained the FULL AUTHORITY of God, which we do not. We are given authority through Jesus Christ, according to our Faith. This isn’t taught to often in churches today, and I needed to know what was going on inside of me. And this is where and why I believe I had been led astray so easily.  

Two years ago I left this book and went to other teachings, not having my foot on solid ground and opened my mind up to Satan big time. Jesus says in John 10:1  “I tell you the truth, the man who does not enter the sheep pen by the gate, but climbs in by some other way, is a thief and a robber.” Then in 7 He says “I tell you the truth, I am the gate for the sheep” Jesus is our foundation…we have to KNOW WHO HE IS BEFORE our foundation for our spiritual houses will ever be stable. Before the Helmet of our salvation will ever work.

 

 

Satan comes disguised as Light and lies to us. He lied to me for years with the Word of God about who Jesus was. I had to study and study and pray and study more to learn about what was going on inside of me. But every time I would get close, I would break. Why? Because I did NOT FULLY believe without a doubt that Jesus was the Son of God. That Jesus is God. Eventually, I stopped seeking for only my Spirit to be taught and needed to continue in Truth.

See other philosophies teach about The Christ, which so far everything that I have read agrees with scripture. But they leave out who JESUS is. There is a saying that God has been playing in my mind over and over and it says “ The best lies are 99% true” They focus on the Spirit of God, the Christ. Which was leading me away from the foundation of my Eternal Life, Jesus.

James 3 talks about two kinds of Wisdom one is from God, and one is from the devil. Friends, I am standing before you today, having been baptized in the name of Jesus Christ. Being baptized by The Holy Spirit, and confess to you that I had been given wisdom from the devil. Lies used by the Word of God to tell me that Jesus and Elijah were the beasts in revelations. That Psalm 146 talks about how when Jesus died and came back to life his plans were thwarted that He chose the Devil and we were all now being deceived. For two years I have wrestled with this lie inside of me, as I imagine as Jacob wrestled with the Spirit of God. Only I thought I was wrestling with the devil. Because I did not have my foundation in place, this lie had kept me bound up in fear of being a child of the devil. These lies friends are lies that creep in and steal our identity In Christ. I was blind to the truth that I was in prison, simply because I couldn’t believe.

When I first began studying the Word I was also in a Christian College and I remember asking my professor about Matthew 3:11 which says “I baptize you with water for repentance. But after me will come one who is more powerful than I, whose sandals I am not fit to carry.  He will baptize you with the Holy Spirit and with fire.” I asked him what it meant by “fire” He was unable to tell me.

 

Today I believe I have a little bit of understanding as to what this “fire” is. Continuing it says: “His winnowing fork is in his hand, and he will clear his threshing floor, gathering his wheat into the barn and burning up the chaff with unquenchable fire.” In the parable of the weeds in Matthew 13:24-30 Jesus talks about how the enemy planted “weeds” among good soil. And in verse 28 the servants ask “Do you want us to go and pull them up?” He says “No” Let them both grow together when the harvest comes first collect the weeds and burn them up, then gather the wheat and bring them in my barn,”

When we are baptized in the name of Jesus Christ we are made new, God now sees us through Jesus. Blameless. Then Jesus sends us the Holy Spirit, The Spirit of Truth which judges us. The Fire that He also baptizes us with is to refine us from the impurities, the LIES that we have come to believe, even if we don’t realize it.

It has taken 5 years for this “fire” to refine me from the lies that kept me from knowing Who Jesus Christ is. Until I knew who He was, I couldn’t believe who he says I am…and without knowing who I am in Christ…I was lost. Today I stand before you covered by the Blood of Jesus Christ, my eyes are open and I am no longer blind to the truth that I AM UNFORSAKEN. I HAVE BEEN REDEEMED. There is POWER in ME & YOU claim it… in His name. Real Freedom is in Jesus Christ!

The truth says in Acts 2:38,39 “Repent and be baptized, every one of you, in the name of Jesus Christ for the forgiveness of your sins. And you will receive the gift of the Holy Spirit.” The promise is for you and your children and for all who are far off—for all whom the Lord our God will call. — if you’re in this room and you have not been baptized in the Name of Jesus Christ then God is now calling YOU. Will you listen?

a few ways that I Hear Gods Voice….

Eagle cloud

Two Eagles and a Vine

When you read your bible do you allow it to be received as if it were written directly to you? If you don’t might I suggest today you try. Ask Jesus to speak to you, to reveal Himself through His Written Word. Then know that He will. Don’t try and fight or control what you’re reading. Just let the words slowly (or quickly) come alive. If you have a lucky number keep an eye out to see if it happens to be in the verse you’re reading that sticks out, or possibly the time on the clock. Allow God’s Word to come alive and reveal to you something you may never have noticed before.

This morning He had me in Ezekiel. And I have to be honest sometimes it can be scary reading the Old Testament in this mindset. I hardly quit reading before He blesses me with something good to walk away with. This morning after being tossed back and forth between one warning after another, I received a beautiful gift. One that I will never let go of. It will be mine for as long as I live.

When the fan flipped my page over to show Chapter 17 Two Eagles and a Vine my heart began to see the Light of the earlier chastisement. 17 was the number my brother Mike wore on his football jersey, and my Daddy loved Eagles so much that my mom chose a beautiful Urn with an Eagle landing on a branch above water. Both Mike and my Dad have passed on so this, along with the Savior of my Souls description of Himself, I knew there had to be something in there just for me. And there it is 17:7,8 – Which happens to be my birthdate 1/7/78 it gets even better when I hit my phone to write the time down along with the verse it was 7:53am. My dad was born in 53….just another way of God showering me with LOVE through His Written Word.

There are many other personal messages within the text above, but these are just a few ways that I Hear Gods Voice, and Receive the LOVE that He pours out on me. I hope you are encouraged to ask God to Open the Eyes of your Heart and receive the Love He’s been waiting to give to you.

~sometimes I just gotta write~

My Foundation is SET….

For the last 5 years I have heard and said over and over again to women who were hurting and broken hearted. “You need Jesus. Cry out to Jesus. Give it to Jesus.” Can I tell you something that I have struggled with for the last 5 years since surrendering my life over to this Jesus? I had no idea who He was. I mean I had head knowledge of who He was, and I had even experienced the power of Christ within my life. But I didn’t KNOW Him, or know HOW to know Him anymore than I already did. Or most importantly….. how to ignore the lies I knew about Him. So today I want to share with you the lies that kept me from fully believing in Jesus, and the way Satan used this to almost steal my Identity.

Jesus is First Our Lord and Savior. This many of you know. So did I. I was even baptized into this Truth….but still I doubted in this man that was also God. I have been unprepared in the basics of WHO Jesus is and HOW He is Man and God. Jesus was placed in Mary’s womb by the Holy Spirit.  Matthew 1:18-25 gives the account to this, but still my mind couldn’t wrap around this. Even though I KNOW the Bible is true, something inside of me said”c’mon this is CRAZY, what if she cheated on Joseph and got pregnant.” That something inside of me is the voice of lies, ie the devil, satan, our enemy. God finally squashed this lie last month, after 5 years of living for Him He opened my eyes and ears and said. “Crystal, you believe that I created this entire universe by the power of my Words, but you don’t think I can place a child inside of a woman?”  Well when you put it like that….how can I not believe?

Another lie that kept me from believing that Jesus is the Son of God was his baptism.   What was KEY for me to seal the truth about Jesus being fully man and fully God was what God says about sin. See the voice of lies that I listened to said “well Jesus was baptized so who knows if He actually sinned since we don’t know anything about Him” Jesus had to live a sinless life under the law in order to become a sacrifice blameless and pure and fulfill the law. God cannot dwell within a man when there is SIN in Him. And in Matthew 3:16 it says “As soon as Jesus was baptized, he went up out of the water. At that moment heaven was opened, and He saw the Spirit of God descending like a dove and lighting on him.” Jesus then became FULLY GOD, He had lived a life of obedience to The Father and because He was blameless without sin, God then gave His FULL AUTHORITY to Jesus, making Him The Christ, The Anointed One, The Messiah. No sacrifice was needed for Jesus because there was no sin in Him. God would not have given Jesus FULL authority had there been any sin within Him.

When we are baptized in the Name of Jesus Christ we also are forgiven for ALL of our sins, which allows GODs Holy Spirit, the Christ to now DWELL IN US. Making US as Jesus ONE WITH THE FATHER. But this is only through the blood Jesus shed for us on the cross.

These were two lies that lingered within my mind and because they were left unchecked I was led into a terrifying trap.

Two years ago I left the Bible and went to other teachings, not having my foot on solid ground and opened my mind up to Satan big time. Jesus says in John 10:1  “I tell you the truth, the man who does not enter the sheep pen by the gate, but climbs in by some other way, is a thief and a robber.” Then in 7 He says “I tell you the truth, I am the gate for the sheep” Jesus is our foundation…we have to KNOW WHO HE IS BEFORE our foundation for our spiritual houses will ever be stable. Before the Helmet of our salvation will ever work.

2 Timothy 3, Paul talks about the Godlessness in the Last Days. In Verses 1-5 Paul gives some pretty harsh characteristics about these “godless” people but I want to focus on Verse 5 “having a form of godliness but denying it’s POWER. Have nothing to do with them.”

Having a form of godliness but denying its POWER. Ladies, we have the POWER OF GOD in us. We are One with God as Jesus, but Jesus had attained the FULL AUTHORITY of God, which we do not. We are given authority through Jesus Christ, according to our Faith. This isn’t taught to often in churches today, and I needed to know what was going on inside of me. And this is where and why I believe I had been led astray so easily.  

 

 

Satan comes disguised as Light and lies to us. He lied to me for years with the Word of God about who Jesus was. I had to study and study and pray and study more to learn about what was going on inside of me. But every time I would get close, I would break. Why? Because I did NOT FULLY believe without a doubt that Jesus was the Son of God. That Jesus is God. Eventually, I stopped seeking for only my Spirit to be taught and needed to continue in Truth.

See other philosophies teach about The Christ, which so far everything that I have read agrees with scripture. But they leave out who JESUS is. There is a saying that God has been playing in my mind over and over and it says “ The best lies are 99% true” They focus on the Spirit of God, the Christ. Which was leading me away from the foundation of my Eternal Life, Jesus.

James 3 talks about two kinds of Wisdom one is from God, and one is from the devil. Ladies I am standing before you today, having been baptized in the name of Jesus Christ. Being baptized by The Holy Spirit, and confess to you that I have been given wisdom from the devil. Lies used by the Word of God to tell me that Jesus and Elijah were the beasts in revelations. That Psalm 146 talks about how when Jesus died and came back to life his plans were thwarted that He chose the Devil and we were all now being deceived. For two years I have wrestled with this lie inside of me, as I imagine as Jacob wrestled with the Spirit of God. Only I thought I was wrestling with the devil. Because I did not have my foundation in place, this lie has kept me bound up in fear of being a child of the devil. These lies ladies are lies that creep in and steal our identity In Christ. I was blind to the truth that I was in prison, simply because I couldn’t believe.

When I first began studying the Word I was also in a Christian College and I remember asking my professor about Matthew 3:11 which says “I baptize you with water for repentance. But after me will come one who is more powerful than I, whose sandals I am not fit to carry.  He will baptize you with the Holy Spirit and with fire.” I asked him what it meant by “fire” He was unable to tell me.

 

Today I believe I have a little bit of understanding as to what this “fire” is. Continuing it says: “His winnowing fork is in his hand, and he will clear his threshing floor, gathering his wheat into the barn and burning up the chaff with unquenchable fire.” In the parable of the weeds in Matthew 13:24-30 Jesus talks about how the enemy planted “weeds” among good soil. And in verse 28 the servants ask “Do you want us to go and pull them up?” He says “No” Let them both grow together when the harvest comes first collect the weeds and burn them up, then gather the wheat and bring them in my barn,”

When we are baptized in the name of Jesus Christ we are made new, God now sees us through Jesus. Blameless. Then Jesus sends us the Holy Spirit, The Spirit of Truth which judges us. The Fire that He also baptizes us with I believe is to refine us from the impurities, the LIES that we have come to believe, even if we don’t realize it.

It has taken 5 years for this “fire” to refine me from the lies that kept me from knowing Who Jesus Christ is. Until I knew who He was, I couldn’t believe who he says I am…and without knowing who I am in Christ…I was lost. Today I stand before you covered by the Blood of Jesus Christ, my eyes are open and I am no longer blind to the truth that I AM UNFORSAKEN. I HAVE BEEN REDEEMED. There is POWER in ME & YOU claim it… in His name.

The truth says in Acts 2:38,39 “Repent and be baptized, every one of you, in the name of Jesus Christ for the forgiveness of your sins. And you will receive the gift of the Holy Spirit.” The promise is for you and your children and for all who are far off—for all whom the Lord our God will call. — if you’re reading this and you have not been baptized in the Name of Jesus Christ then God is now calling YOU. Will you listen?