Focus on the Good

Have you ever had a powerful week in the Lord and then BAM someone comes at you with hateful words? 

Words that run through your mind and even though you know those words are filled with anger and hate they still manage to take up residence within your mind and heart? 

This happened to me recently. As I lay in bed thinking about what was said about me, contemplating the truth to what was said. Because let’s face it, sometimes the truth can be delivered by those who dislike you. Also, why does it bother us so much if there isn’t a possibility of it being true. 

But God…  

And Jesus knowing their thoughts said, “Why are you thinking evil in your hearts?

Matthew 9:4 NASB

When you have God’s Word hidden in your heart He will speak truth over you. This is what He spoke to me while my mind and heart became obsessed and bitter. 

I’m aware of my ways. I’m aware of my enemies. And truth is so is Satan. He knows the thorns I have. He knows who to use and what they need to say to get my eyes distracted from God and on my flesh. 

But if you have bitter jealousy and selfish ambition in your heart, do not be arrogant and so lie against the truth. This wisdom is not that which comes down from above, but is earthly, natural, demonic. For where jealousy and selfish ambition exist, there is disorder and every evil thing.

James 3:14‭-‬16 NASB

Everything that comes from me dwelling on what was said is demonic. Period. This is why it’s so important that we continually check our thoughts. Submit them to Christ. Be on alert because the devil is always seeking to destroy that which is pure within. 

But the wisdom from above is first pure, then peaceable, gentle, reasonable, full of mercy and good fruits, unwavering, without hypocrisy.

James 3:17 NASB

Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart Be acceptable in Your sight, O Lord , my rock and my Redeemer.

Psalms 19:14 NASB

Watch over your heart with all diligence, For from it flow the springs of life. Put away from you a deceitful mouth And put devious speech far from you.

Proverbs 4:23‭-‬24 NASB 

Friends, it’s important that we guard our thoughts, and what we speak over ourselves. 

The enemy is always accusing the Children of God. We must not agree with what is spoken in hate. These words are demonic. Do not entertain such words. Focus on what is true, honorable, worthy, peaceable and pure. These things are from your Father. 

Today I pray for you and I. I pray that we refuse to give the devil a foothold in our hearts and minds. That we guard them diligently and continually submit all thoughts to Christ and only allow His Words which bring peace take root within. 

And the seed whose fruit is righteousness is sown in peace by those who make peace.

James 3:18 NASB


Personal struggle with defending myself….

DAN 3:16-18 NCV

Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego answered the king, saying, “Nebuchadnezzar, we do not need to defend ourselves to you. If you throw us into the blazing furnace, the God we serve is able to save us from the furnace. He will save us from your power, O king. But even if God does not save us, we want you, O king, to know this: We will not serve your gods or worship the gold statue you have set up.”

Such confidence these men had in God. It was this confidence that ultimately saved them. We see this repeatedly in the New Testament also. Many times we see those beautiful red letters say “Your Faith has healed you.” Faith meaning belief. I wonder how my Faith/Belief would withstand this type of persecution.

If I’m to be honest I’ve failed horribly these past few months at a different type of persecution. One that is created within my mind. One that although I continue to live each day and don’t have to worry about being thrown into an actual fire, my Spirit has been slowly dying while under this invisible fire within my mind.

I hear Gods voice in many different ways. Some of these ways are typical to many. Through His written Word. Through other believers or teachers. But then there are the other ways, through types of birds, signs, symbols, numbers, dates, coincidences, and even audibly etc…. the list can go on and on really. Sometimes I am so engulfed in the Spirit that every moment I can see His hands and hear His voice. It’s during those times when I would expect another believer to see Him as well, but they don’t or even worse they look at me as if I have 3 eyes.

But see this is where the fire within my mind begins. Because I have assumed they are looking at me with 3 eyes when I truly do not know if they are. That fiery dart has been thrown and I because of my past have allowed it to fester. And as the days go on anytime I am questioned, or someone makes a comment that may or may not deal with me directly, I allow that flame to be engulfed even more.

Recently my family has relocated to a different church, within the same town, and they both go off of the same biblical teachings, the New Testament. I have continued relationships with the people from my previous church, as well as having some of them at the new church I am at. Even more recently I have heard (which this is a HUGE problem for the fires we as women create in our minds….GOSSIP….VERY TOXIC), that those of us who have left this church are heretics. So you can imagine the fire within my mind now….if not let me just say we could roast marshmallows for days.

This morning after having a text conversation with a friend it was obvious that I had to diminish this flame, because it was causing bitterness within my heart and a lack of trust in people. And what better way than to publicly write about it. 😉 So I looked up the meaning of the word heretic, and it says that it’s a believer who doesn’t follow what their church follows. And I guess that would be correct. I guess I am a heretic, if the people at the church we left believes this because my family chose to follow what God said and not what the church says.

Want to know what is so heartbreaking to me? God tells us to LOVE HIM, and the LOVE others as we LOVE ourselves. I find it very hard to love others when these others throw so many stones at those who choose to worship God differently. I am a follower of Jesus Christ, and I belong to HIS Church. I will go where He says to go and if that makes me and my family heretics….then I pray for the courage as these three men, as well as Paul and live with a God confidence that I do not have to defend myself to them.

Where do I go from here? Well Jesus told His disciples that stopped others from casting out demons in His name “If they’re not against us they’re FOR us” So that’s what I’m going to continue to believe. These few bad apples do not ruin an entire tree of good apples. The church my family and I departed from is an amazing church, and I have witnessed amazing transformations because of the Spirit of God that resides within those walls. They have produced many, many, many, disciples of Christ, myself, my husband, and my daughter to name a few. They are my family and will always be. I will continue to pray for those who go there to see the LIGHT that is within everyone, and that Gods Holy Spirit convicts those who continue to gossip about others and cause internal flames to destroy so many.

Words hold power people. Choose your words carefully. Choose your judgments carefully, because we are judged by the measure which we judge. Whether we acknowledge it or not we do all judge others…choose to judge them by the standards displayed for us in Jesus Christ. He LOVED ALL. Came to SAVE the SICK. NOT condemn them. Let those of us who call Him Lord follow the example of these men of Judah and say to the Nebuchadnezzar’s in our lives (& minds) “we do not need to defend ourselves to you.”

You and I have ONE judge….and ONLY ONE! Let us PRAY for the Church that Jesus is building. That we be honorable men and women, and lead by His example.

~sometimes I just gotta write~