For He who has died is free from sin….

Recently I was told that some fellow believers once gathered together to pray against my belief in my forgiveness of sins, as of today. That I was no longer a sinner but born again and no longer identify ME as my flesh but as one with Christ, as Spirit. As well me having left the teaching of men within the church establishment.

At first this bothered me that I was even told this because it was unnecessary for me to know that because of their unbelief they prayed against me. 

But as the days have gone on and I thought of this I’ve always been reminded of the story in Acts, instead of me paraphrasing I’ll just share it.

 But Peter and the apostles answered, “We must obey God rather than men. The God of our fathers raised up Jesus, whom you had put to death by hanging Him on a cross. He is the one whom God exalted to His right hand as a Prince and a Savior, to grant repentance to Israel, and forgiveness of sins. And we are witnesses of these things; and so is the Holy Spirit, whom God has given to those who obey Him.”  But when they heard this, they were cut to the quick and intended to kill them. But a Pharisee named Gamaliel, a teacher of the Law, respected by all the people, stood up in the Council and gave orders to put the men outside for a short time. And he said to them, “Men of Israel, take care what you propose to do with these men. For some time ago Theudas rose up, claiming to be somebody, and a group of about four hundred men joined up with him. But he was killed, and all who followed him were dispersed and came to nothing. After this man, Judas of Galilee rose up in the days of the census and drew away some people after him; he too perished, and all those who followed him were scattered. So in the present case, I say to you, stay away from these men and let them alone, for if this plan or action is of men, it will be overthrown; but if it is of God, you will not be able to overthrow them; or else you may even be found fighting against God.”

Acts 5:29‭-‬39 NASB

I rejoice always when I see my life reflected within the scriptures. It’s been years since the Holy Spirit has taught me through His Spirit and confirmed with the written Truth that I am indeed FREE and am no longer a slave to sin. And can live my life no longer identifying with the filth of my flesh as who I am. 

And one of these who prayed against me had come to know this truth as well. So as it says in Acts “but if it is of God, you will not be able to overthrow them; or else you may even be fighting against God.” 

For all who are being led by the Spirit of God, these are sons of God.

Romans 8:14 NASB

We know that no one who is born of God sins; but He who was born of God keeps him, and the evil one does not touch him.

1 John 5:18 NASB

You know that He appeared in order to take away sins; and in Him there is no sin. No one who abides in Him sins; no one who sins has seen Him or knows Him. Little children, make sure no one deceives you; the one who practices righteousness is righteous, just as He is righteous; the one who practices sin is of the devil; for the devil has sinned from the beginning. The Son of God appeared for this purpose, to destroy the works of the devil. No one who is born of God practices sin, because His seed abides in him; and he cannot sin, because he is born of God. By this the children of God and the children of the devil are obvious: anyone who does not practice righteousness is not of God, nor the one who does not love his brother.

1 John 3:5‭-‬10 NASB

For if we have become united with Him in the likeness of His death, certainly we shall also be in the likeness of His resurrection, knowing this, that our old self was crucified with Him, in order that our body of sin might be done away with, so that we would no longer be slaves to sin; for he who has died is freed from sin. ⬅⬅⬅⬅

Romans 6:5‭-‬7 NASB

So I ask, have you, your flesh died? 



You also became imitators of us and of the Lord, having received the word in much tribulation with the joy of the Holy Spirit, so that you became an example to all the believers in Macedonia and in Achaia.

1 Thessalonians 1:6‭-‬7 NASB

Have you ever been ministering/mentoring a new believer and when they begin to joyfully walk in the Word that was given to them they immediately had trials thrust upon them? 

We’re always ready to blame the enemy for these trials. I’m so guilty of this. I just did this a couple days ago. But today as I began reading this jumped out at me. And quickly I was reminded of the time when I first came boldly to the Lord and how many trials were thrown at me. I blamed the enemy believing he was trying to steal my joy, cause me to stumble. Never did I consider that these trials were placed to strengthen me and allow be to become an example to other believers. 

Which explains why we rejoice in ALL things. Because we know that the Lord is strengthening us. There’s no storm or trial too big to change how this story ends. 

Just a little thought from my morning study. 

Be blessed. 

It is written…


I was once consumed with books. My home holds over 600+ and my Nook an additional 500+. Now I haven’t read them all but had hoped one day I would. Then last February during a 10 day fast from sleep and food (would catch a couple hours every 3 days or so) I had several experiences that I’ve never truly been able to explain. It has been a pivotal turning point within in my walk to say the least. During one of these days I felt as if I had a fresh baptism of the Spirit of Truth. It was pressed upon me so intensely that everything had to be truth, there couldn’t even be a partial truth spoken because one wrong word could change everything. Eve changed what God had told them and death seeped into all mankind. This is also the time when I was told that all I ever needed to leave my children was the Bible. That all the other books were pointless and would only confuse them. His Word was all I Needed.

It took me a month before I finally felt that this was true. And for almost a year now I’ve been on a fast from all other teachings. Slowly I let go of devotionals only reading ones that I felt led to. Weeding out sermons, commentaries, and everything else that watered down what was already written. And today I have never felt more mental peace and security in my life. Mainly though the clarity and confidence in what I know now is unshakable.

God has always been my teacher. He has assured the way for me to hear His Voice and I no longer need another to affirm what He has told me.

The text that inspired this over share is:

Ecclesiastes 12:12 NASB

But beyond this, my son, be warned: the writing of many books is endless, and excessive devotion to books is wearying to the body.

I remember when I first read this my selfishness rejected what it said. Today as I read these words, and see the weariness still within others who go to other books and sermons for comfort I can’t help but say “Wish I would’ve listen sooner”
It is written…Go to Him and let everything else Go.

Isaiah 26:3-4 NASB

“The steadfast of mind You will keep in perfect peace, Because he trusts in You. “Trust in the Lord forever, For in God the Lord , we have an everlasting Rock.

I encourage you to fast from all other teachings for 7 days (or more,preferably more) and only read Scripture allowing the Holy Spirit to give you understanding. Believing He will as it is written in James. Your belief changes everything and when you begin to weed out the chaff that has been planted within your mind, May you SEE who YOU truly are! Blessings friends. (Ps. Fasting even means from blogs like this.)

Your husband is your Maker….


‘For your husband is your Maker, Whose name is the LORD of hosts; And your Redeemer is the Holy One of Israel, Who is called the God of all the earth.” Isaiah 54:5

I’ve quoted this a lot these past few weeks. Especially when talking about the relationship between me and my husband. (pictured above)

There is a quote that one of my friends sent me years ago, before I ever fell in love with God. It says: “A woman must be so lost in God that any man must go through Him in order to find her.” This quote really changed me and my heart over the years. Today I send this same quote to my single girl friends, in hope they will see the TRUTH that lies within.

When Chadd an I were first married we were both on fire for the Lord. Then life began to snatch away the Word and put out our fire. I resented my husband and our relationship. As time went on God began to slowly reveal to me that I was in fact the problem, not Chadd. I put too much pressure on him, I expected too much from him as my husband and the father of my children. Eventually everything broke and I learned that my husband is in fact my Maker.

When I no longer put the expectation on Chadd to fill me, I was able to find fulfillment from the ONLY one capable of filling me, God. Then Chadd was able to add to the ‘overflow’ and I was able to love him exactly where he was. Which this caused him to become the man that I have yearned for all along.

This past weekend I realized just how much I truly love this man. He was away for a mens retreat and I missed him terribly. I also realized while he was away that I haven’t allowed myself to really love him. I’ve kept him at a distance, afraid that he would disappoint me. And last night when we were laying in bed, guess what happened….I felt disappointed. I became angry and hurt. What does this mean? Well it means that I didn’t get what I wanted. James 4:1,2 tell us that we quarrel because we do not get what we want. So when I begin to argue with my husband, Holy Spirit reminds me of this and I begin to allow Wisdom to bring me understanding. As Proverbs 8 describes Wisdom to be a woman, she is very gentle in the way she reminds me that I am not here to be served but to serve, and my husband in the flesh is not here to serve me but to serve others. We are a unit yes, but ultimately we are here to help bring the Kingdom of God here, not to fulfill our fleshly desires.

Ladies, I want to first pray for you. Ask that God pour out the Holy Spirit within your hearts and allow Wisdom and Understanding to come to you as it has me, gently and lovingly. God knows what we need and He does lavish us with love and affection, sometimes through a song, a friend, a book. But when the time comes He will lavish us with the fleshly love we desire. I believe it’s up to us to continue to seek God first and allow the love that others give us to be an overflow.

Remember, our Maker is our Husband.

Oh How He Loves US!


He made Him who knew no sin to be sin on our behalf, so that we might become the righteousness of God in Him. 2 Corinthians 5:21

Last week during Bible study we discussed the Garden of Gethsemane for a brief moment. I believe today this moment was brief because God knew the impact this was having within me and it was a process that He wants me to swallow slowly. Even as I write this my eyes are filled with tears.

The Garden of Gethsemane
36 Then Jesus came with them to a place called Gethsemane, and said to His disciples, “Sit here while I go over there and pray.” 37 And He took with Him Peter and the two sons of Zebedee, and began to be grieved and distressed. 38 Then He said to them, “My soul is deeply grieved, to the point of death ; remain here and keep watch with Me.” 39 And He went a little beyond them, and fell on His face and prayed, saying, “My Father, if it is possible, let this cup pass from Me; yet not as I will, but as You will.” Matthew 26:36-39

Up until this moment I have always imagined these moments of grief were due to the upcoming torture He would endure for us. Which I still agree this was partially true. But what the Spirit opened my eyes and heart to was what this first scripture says. Jesus didn’t just take our sin from us, but he BECAME SIN. Our sins became His own.

Think about the worst moment of guilt you’ve ever endured, now try to acknowledge the guilt of a murder of a child, a rapist, and so on. They personally may not ever feel guilty but you know that the man Jesus bore their guilt, every single sin EVER He became. And still as He hung on that cross bleeding and suffocating to death, He cried out to God “Father forgive them for they do not know what they are doing.”

People ask “Where is God in all this suffering?” Today I pray for these people, I pray that they encounter a supernatural love that over powers the darkness within them. See my friends, these people who are ‘evil’ in your eyes, are children in the eyes of our God. Jesus took their sins also, so when Jesus said ‘love your enemies’ He meant it because the thing is, He LOVES them just as much as He loves you and me.

“Greater love has no one than this, that one lay down his life for his friends.” John 15:13

Father God, Thank you! My Lord Jesus Christ, Thank you! I love you! More than I can even comprehend, I love you! And yet you love me more!

love someone today, especially yourself, forgive someone today, especially yourself, Jesus DOES!

“If you start with the negative it’ll never work.”


Delight yourself in the LORD; and He will give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to Him, and He will do it. Psalm 37:4,5

As of lately this verse is what comes to mind each night before I lay my head down. This morning I woke up and the message I heard within my Spirit: “If you start with the negative it’ll never work.” Then I heard the chorus from Lamb of God by Tenth Avenue North “You are Holy, You are Worthy, You are Holy, You’re the Lamb of God”

The message was pertaining to the Gospel, aka the Good News of Jesus Christ. If we tell everyone all the things that will happen to them by not choosing God it’ll never work. God is LOVE. Perfect LOVE casts out fear. So why do we believe that scaring people will cause them to seek out our God?

Have you ever seen the original kids movie Monsters Inc.? In this movie the monsters scare kids nightly to get power for their world. They have a power shortage until they realized “accidently” that laughter held more power than fear.

Think about this, a children’s movie truly holds the key to evangelism. LOVE is the GREATEST of all. If we LOVE people, tell them all the things that we LOVE about God, about being Gods children. And most importantly LOVE people exactly where they are, I can guarantee there will be a higher chance of them desiring what we have, God.

I love quoting Todd White from Father of Lights, “If they can’t see Christ in you, they don’t want what you have bro!”

Now I’m not saying that we should only tell them about the amazing Joy and unexplainable peace that we attain when we become One with Christ, we need to equip those whom we lead to the Cross. They are our sheep on loan from the Father. We need to be great Shepherds, but as the message says: “if you start out with the negative, it’ll never work.”

It’s time that we begin delighting ourselves in the LORD. We need to take great pleasure in Jesus, the Word, God, the Holy Spirit, and then we can begin to love those in the dark.

I want to end with this exhortation, how many of you can honestly say you are Free from Sin? How many of you can honestly say I no longer have Sin in me, nor will I ever because I am 100% forgiven, for Eternity? How many of you can honestly say you no longer suffer from depression because you have the desires of your heart fulfilled?

If you’re unable to say these things then you may need to acknowledge that you don’t believe that Jesus Christ completed the work at the Cross. His Blood paid our debt, if He truly lives IN you then you KNOW that you are completely forgiven, and this my friends brings TRUE FREEDOM!

Believe God: Delight yourselves in the LORD, and He WILL give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to Him, and He will do it. – True Story! I’m living proof!

~sometimes I just gotta write~

Believe the Unbelievable


Just as you received Jesus Christ Jesus as our Lord, continue to live in Him, rooted and built up in Him, strengthened in the Faith as you were taught, and overflow with thankfulness. – Colossians 2:6

A few years back I began to truly resent my husband. I felt he was keeping me back from serving the Lord radically. Our church at the time was teaching a series titled ‘ROOTS’, the picture above is the picture they used. Each week I would see this picture and I resonated with it so deeply. Trees have always been apart of my life. But there was something about this one that just spoke so loudly to me. A few weeks into the series I began drawing the picture above while the pastor spoke. (I have the gift of ADD so I can totally listen and draw at the same time.) As I began to draw the white path I heard my Papa’s voice “you need only be still, I will bring them to you”. I began to cry, as I usually do when I hear Him so clearly.

Later I asked my husband to get me a copy of this picture (he worked with the media department), and I had it printed and it’s a book mark within my bible. What is even more “God like” is the tree resembles the tree planted for my brother in 1999 after his passing. It grew exactly as this picture with one branch off to the side. Image

The girl sitting next to the tree, as well looks like myself. Now these are all ‘coincidences’ sure. But when you believe GOD, and the things that He tells us that His ways are higher than ours. That He is outside of time, and knows the hairs on our head, you (or at least I) begin to see Him in every detail of your life. I begin to trust that He knew that picture would resonate with me because He chose to place that within my heart and have the one who design the picture to make it exactly as it is. He grew the tree that was planted in memory of my brother, and He spoke to me through that picture.

Last night my heart smiled when my very favorite teacher described me as one who believes firmly in the super natural. This morning as we discussed more details about the ministry she has asked me to be apart of she said how she loved that moment when she was telling her friend who grew up in the church about me. I quoted John 4:23,24 His true worshipers will worship in Truth and Spirit.  

This brings me to the reason I started this blog. After God spoke those words to me that he would bring them to me, I was able to get out of His way and allow Him to work in my life and my husbands. It’s been almost 3 years since that moment, and I am truly seeing the fruit of trusting Him. I am apart of two ministries that speak to me so deeply. One is geared towards the freedom of Gods women, and the other is geared towards orphans and those who have never heard the gospel. James 1:27 says: Religion that our Father accepts as pure and faultless is this: to look after orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself from being polluted by the world. As I finished writing this I looked at the time and it is 12:34pm – what my heart hears is this “it’s as easy as 1234”

He has kept His promise and brought amazing people to me, and has set me upon a rock, and placed a new song within my mouth. I believe in the unbelievable which keeps me from being polluted by the world. I live in the world but God willing I will not become of the world. I can’t help but ask if you can say the same? Do you blow off the things that seem just too far fetched to be from God? Do you continue to pray the same prayers because you believe He isn’t hearing you? If you’re heart is in the prayer, then He has heard you. Being a persistent widow is ok, but being a person of unbelief isn’t. Hebrews 3:7-19 emphasis on 19 says that those who were not able to enter were because of their unbelief.

Friends, God does not want any of us to perish. He GAVE us His Son to take the pain of separation. We are no longer unavailable to God, if ONLY we would BELIEVE. So I pray to continue to share with you these unusual connections that I have with my Papa in hopes to encourage your belief in the unbelievable, and help you to come out of the World and into what is yours. All that is Christ’s has been given to us, if only we would BELIEVE!


I never believed God would love someone like me. I believed the lie immediately and it took 30 years for me to finally hear


the truth. I’ve spent the last 5 years being a voice for this redemptive Love….and today I am beyond myself with the reality that I am just scratching the surface of the DEPTH of this LOVE. I urge you to read 1 Corinthians 13 with me this week. Each day read it again, replace LOVE with GOD and begin to unfold who God is with me. If you’re reading this, dont reject what I AM saying bc the Spirit of Christ is IN me and He is calling YOU!! I love you!!

Spiritual Gypsies?


I remember my mom saying we were like gypsies because we moved so much. She made the yearly move to a new apartment place exciting. She was a great mom. Today I know it was because we had to move because we were late on our rent and couldn’t afford to stay there. But what a wonderful way to add joy to the kids, when in her heart I’m sure she was struggling knowing that this was one more place her kids had to leave.

Little did she know God was preparing me for the same kind of life, within the church. I told one of my girlfriends today that we were gypsies because we decided to visit her church again. And man oh man am I ever glad we did. Beautiful message about the Holy Spirit (my FAVORITE subject in church). We’ve visited this church in the past and I knew the teachings were excellent and the kids church set a fire within my children that had never really been there in our original church. But it didn’t seem like God wanted us there at that time. So we moved on to another church, that God seemed very clear on telling both my husband and I THIS is where you need to be. Then we both began plugging in and things seemed to fall apart within our home again, and my Spirit was definitely not free to be me. Then God had one of my very best friends and I have a separation and this church is way too small for the both of us, so I chose to stay home while my family went to church. (NOT what GOD wants at all)

Then one night Perry Stone was teaching at another church and I absolutely love his teachings, which have helped me tremendously understand myself more and more. This church worshipped like my Spirit had ACHED to worship and looked at my husband and said THIS is where I am supposed to be, right now. I knew that my kids and him weren’t completely comfortable but they could see I had come back to life. So we stayed there and also ventured at church at home. Which was also a beautiful fit.

This morning as we were getting out of service, both just beaming because all that God had been teaching us through the Voice of Apostles from Global Awakening, the recent family He has brought us unto, and the Pastor via internet He’s been speaking to us about was all packed in this amazing teaching. I could tell my husband and daughter were coming alive, and when we left they affirmed what God had already opened my eyes too. But I told my husband that I still believe within my being that we are rooted in HIM and He is moving us from place to place because He wants us to BE the CHURCH not BE OF the CHURCH. Sounds familiar right, be IN the world, not OF the world.

I absolutely love Jesus, The Bible, and His church. I absolutely hate the religious spirit that has infiltrated our churches. We are hated because we are not truly living out ACTS, so who wants our Jesus when we can’t even decide to live the way He did. LOVE….radical LOVE is what He gave us. How? Because He IS GOD, GOD IS LOVE (See 1 Corinthians 13 – replace LOVE with GOD and see who GOD is). The Holy Spirit of God, which I am coming to believe is the female aspect of God…and before you throw stones at me do me a favor and try and understand what I am saying before rejecting it.

Wisdom is described as a SHE, WISDOM IS THE HOLY SPIRIT! Genesis says He created THEM in HIS image. WOman, I just heard in my Spirit WISDOM OF MAN – we are HIS helpers, Holy Spirit is the HELPER sent to us. God has a masculine and feminine side to Him how else would He create this image of Himself if it didn’t include the feminine side? Also, if you’re actually paying attention to the move of God He is ushering in the Holy Spirit fiercely as well as removing the stigma’s on Woman within the church. Coincidence? GOD does NOTHING on accident. or By chance. He’s not sitting up above us saying “oh wow didn’t see that happening” Maybe I’m wrong….I don’t think I am, but I do challenge you to search the scriptures like the Bereans did and I pray that you do so without the intention to prove me wrong, just as the Atheist try to prove Jesus doesn’t exist.

The moral of my blog is this….Listen to the Spirit of God…be a Mary when Jesus is talking, and GO where ever HE tells you to, and DO, SAY, and LOVE ALL THAT HE TELLS YOU TO!

Where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is Liberty! I love you, all of you, even those of you who disagree with what I’ve written. Would love for you to reply to what I’ve written.

~sometimes I just gotta write~

Penny for your thoughts!


How can I put into words what this weekend was like? This is what was joked about early in the morning as we stand around simmering coals while worshipping our Lord and Savior, surrounded by the heavenly Angels, moments after proclaiming the names of those that we are in agreement will be proclaiming that Jesus is Lord.

This weekend I finally came together and met face to face the family that God has created for me first in Spirit, and manifested via Facebook. Ultimately we are the family of the Great I AM….physically we are the family of I AM MBK (see

We didn’t ask what denomination we were from, we simply asked is Jesus Christ Lord in your life and with a resounding YES our souls united and we were living out ACTS. Whatever the other needed we gladly gave, we broke bread, we sang praise, we prayed, we cried, we confessed, we laid hands, we welcomed the Holy Spirit, and felt the Heavenly Presence of the Angels around us. We celebrated Sabbath the way God intended and welcomed in over 20 souls in Jesus Name.

But what’s so beautiful is this morning God walked me through all of it in a sermon to my daughter. As we were walking through the camp site picking up the trash left behind she found a penny and we both repeated the old saying “See a penny pick it up and all day long you’ll have good luck.” She then began to say what the “world” has added to this rhyme. “Brighton (her brother) says if you see a penny on tales….” I immediately finished her statement  with a “yes honey I know, but can I tell you something…..” and then He began…. (btw she said she didn’t believe that anyway and always picked it up…that’s my girl)

They say if it’s on heads it’s good luck, and if it’s on tales it’s bad luck so don’t pick it up. Does the side of the penny take away the value of the penny? She answered No of course. So if I pick it up on heads I’ve gained a penny, if I pick it up on tales I’m still up a penny. But if the penny is on tales and I walk away I’m without a penny. How is it that I have gained any kind of luck if walking away from the money leaves me without? It seems to me that the LIE that was placed in this old saying has convinced us that since it’s just a penny, which we all know that’s not a lot of money, it’s not worth the chance of getting bad luck. However say there are 2 people and one lives by the original sayings and picks up all 50 pennies that she walks by, and then there is a boy that only picks the 25 that are heads up. Which of those two would have the higher value of money? Seems to me that this little white lie has caused us to walk away from something worth more than nothing, and by doing so the one without luck is in fact the one who thinks everything has to be a certain way before it will bring true value. If only we saw how this leaked into our lives and how many treasures we have walked away from because the package didn’t appear the way we wanted it. Sounds a lot like the way the Jews didn’t like the way the Messiah appeared and decided His treasure was worthless and chose to kill him instead.

How does this tie into this weekend? Well here is how….because of the different levels of Faith that were gathered there were some teachings that were being spoken about that some couldn’t understand. Does this mean that what was taught wasn’t true….well that all depends on how you receive truth….do you strictly gain knowledge only from Scripture? Or do you believe God when He says in Scripture that ALL of GODS CREATION proclaims Gods GLORY? Because I am Gods Creation and I am made in the image of God and if I am being given revelation by God through the trees that are surrounding me does that make what I am saying less valuable because this exact moment isn’t detailed in the Bible? Or would I gain something if I were to believe that GOD uses HIS CREATION to proclaim HIS Glory? Am I getting caught up in the way something is packaged or am I allowing GOD to use ALL of HIS CREATION to reflect and proclaim HIM? Am I allowing the Spirit of TRUTH to be MY detector….do I even BELIEVE that I CAN test the SPIRITS? DO I EVEN BELIEVE THE BIBLE FOR THAT MATTER?

This weekend I became a RICH woman. I opened my mind and Spirit up to God and allowed HIM to be MY sifter and what HE wanted me to receive He has placed within HIS SPIRIT within ME. At the end of the day JESUS CHRIST is MY LORD and SAVIOR and the SPIRIT OF GOD LIVES IN ME AND HE GIVES ME TRUTH AND I WILL NEVER BE THE SAME AGAIN. THIS WEEKEND I BECAME THE CHURCH WITH OTHERS OF THE CHURCH AND I PRAY THAT I NEVER EVER SHUT THE DOOR ON ANY OF GODS MESSENGERS. I love every moment of this weekend. Heads or Tales doesn’t matter because the VALUE is the SAME! Each way I gain more and more of Jesus Christ! I am a RICH RICH WOMAN.

What about you?

~sometimes I just gotta write~