Like a lion is NOT a Lion.

Be of sober spirit, be on the alert. Your adversary, the devil, prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour.

1 Peter 5:8 NASB 

This passage is almost always associated with attacks when weak. But lately it’s been coming to mind for so much more than that, which I always heed as a warning. This morning I was given additional texts so here I am sharing what’s been given. Bare with me as I attempt to piece this together. 

As you see I bold the like a roaring lion, when a lion roars it is essentially speaking. And those that are near LISTEN intently. Another word I want to point out is it says “LIKE” a roaring lion. Why is this so important to notice? 

No wonder, for even Satan disguises himself as an angel of light.

2 Corinthians 11:14 

Because Satan, the Devil, disguises himself as the Light, Jesus, GOD. When he sees a weak prey he then looks to devour him by the things that he SAYS. He will speak directly to your pain. How can he know your pain so perfectly? Because he orchestrated it of course.

 The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I came that they may have life, and have it abundantly.

John 10:10 NASB 

So what happens when he gets in your ear, in your pain and weakness? This is why Peter warns to be be SOBER & on ALERT because he will come to you as a messenger of light. To help you, he will speak scriptures to you and guide you to healing. You might be wondering why in the world would Satan want me to know scriptures? Because if he can’t twist them and enslave you then you begin to worship HIM as God, his whole purpose in life is to be seen as God. What better way than through scriptures. 

We are warned repeatedly about false teachers, apostles and prophets. Do you think they will use anything other than what you consider the “WORD”? 

Paul continues in 1 Corinthians 11 telling the people how they are the ones who accepted this enslaving. 

For you tolerate it if anyone enslaves you, anyone devours you, anyone takes advantage of you, anyone exalts himself, anyone hits you in the face.

2 Corinthians 11:20 NASB

We see the same thing happening to the Galatians. 

You foolish Galatians, who has bewitched you, before whose eyes Jesus Christ was publicly portrayed as crucified?

Galatians 3:1 NASB 

They too believed in what someone had told them. Let’s continue in Galatians to see what they had believed. 

This is the only thing I want to find out from you: did you receive the Spirit by the works of the Law, or by hearing with faith? Are you so foolish? Having begun by the Spirit, are you now being perfected by the flesh? Did you suffer so many things in vain-if indeed it was in vain? So then, does He who provides you with the Spirit and works miracles among you, do it by the works of the Law, or by hearing with faith?

Galatians 3:2‭-‬5 NASB

Interesting. It appears that they had been freed and then believed they must WORK to finish what Jesus had done. 

Let’s jump to Timothy and see what Paul has to say. 

Alexander the coppersmith did me much harm; the Lord will repay him according to his deeds. Be on guard against him yourself, for he vigorously opposed our teaching.  At my first defense no one supported me, but all deserted me; may it not be counted against them. But the Lord stood with me and strengthened me, so that through me the proclamation might be fully accomplished, and that all the Gentiles might hear; and I was rescued out of the lion’s mouth. The Lord will rescue me from every evil deed, and will bring me safely to His heavenly kingdom; to Him be the glory forever and ever. Amen.

2 Timothy 4:14‭-‬18 

Be of sober spirit, be on the alert. Your adversary, the devil, prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour.

1 Peter 5:8 NASB 

Alexander did much harm to Paul by vigorously opposing the teaching of FREEDOM IN CHRIST. Paul was rescused out of the MOUTH of the LION. From the words of SATAN. Paul warns them to be on guard. Same meaning as be on alert. 

Friends, I share this with you today because so many are falling prey to worshiping Satan disguised as God. You’re not sober in mind, you’re riddled with idols therefore you’re unable to see and hear the Lord through them. You’re doubleminded and enslaved to your flesh. You’ve been slapped in the face and have accepted it. 

Be FREE from your flesh. Walk in your freedom and know what the Spirit of TRUTH says about WHO YOU ARE. 

I urge you to read the Book of JUDE, understand that this book is a warning to the Church today. Then I urge you to read the letters to the churches in Revelations. What I write is not my opinion but what is happening to the children of God, today. They have been bewitched. 


Your husband is your Maker….


‘For your husband is your Maker, Whose name is the LORD of hosts; And your Redeemer is the Holy One of Israel, Who is called the God of all the earth.” Isaiah 54:5

I’ve quoted this a lot these past few weeks. Especially when talking about the relationship between me and my husband. (pictured above)

There is a quote that one of my friends sent me years ago, before I ever fell in love with God. It says: “A woman must be so lost in God that any man must go through Him in order to find her.” This quote really changed me and my heart over the years. Today I send this same quote to my single girl friends, in hope they will see the TRUTH that lies within.

When Chadd an I were first married we were both on fire for the Lord. Then life began to snatch away the Word and put out our fire. I resented my husband and our relationship. As time went on God began to slowly reveal to me that I was in fact the problem, not Chadd. I put too much pressure on him, I expected too much from him as my husband and the father of my children. Eventually everything broke and I learned that my husband is in fact my Maker.

When I no longer put the expectation on Chadd to fill me, I was able to find fulfillment from the ONLY one capable of filling me, God. Then Chadd was able to add to the ‘overflow’ and I was able to love him exactly where he was. Which this caused him to become the man that I have yearned for all along.

This past weekend I realized just how much I truly love this man. He was away for a mens retreat and I missed him terribly. I also realized while he was away that I haven’t allowed myself to really love him. I’ve kept him at a distance, afraid that he would disappoint me. And last night when we were laying in bed, guess what happened….I felt disappointed. I became angry and hurt. What does this mean? Well it means that I didn’t get what I wanted. James 4:1,2 tell us that we quarrel because we do not get what we want. So when I begin to argue with my husband, Holy Spirit reminds me of this and I begin to allow Wisdom to bring me understanding. As Proverbs 8 describes Wisdom to be a woman, she is very gentle in the way she reminds me that I am not here to be served but to serve, and my husband in the flesh is not here to serve me but to serve others. We are a unit yes, but ultimately we are here to help bring the Kingdom of God here, not to fulfill our fleshly desires.

Ladies, I want to first pray for you. Ask that God pour out the Holy Spirit within your hearts and allow Wisdom and Understanding to come to you as it has me, gently and lovingly. God knows what we need and He does lavish us with love and affection, sometimes through a song, a friend, a book. But when the time comes He will lavish us with the fleshly love we desire. I believe it’s up to us to continue to seek God first and allow the love that others give us to be an overflow.

Remember, our Maker is our Husband.

Happy New Year!

Happy New Year!! May we reflect on ALL Christ has done and IS doing in and through us. Today may we meditate on the power that lies within us, who has given us this power and what He wants to do through us. We are Vessels of the Most High God. I pray blessings over each and every one reading this, in the Most High Name! Today I pray your mind be free from the restrictions of this world and you allow the Spirit of God to explode within and your dreams become attainable. I pray that you begin to see that this life is but a dream, that you are able to identify more and more the Hand of God so that your able to break free from the chains that bind you. That you dig deeper into your Bible that God gives you more and more Revelations that you begin to read the Book of Revelations and see the depths of what this book holds. I pray that you’re so on Fire for the Lord that others flock to you like a moth to a light. Bc that is what you are, you are the Light of Christ in a dark world surrounded by moths. Shine so brightly and save those who are trapped in darkness. I ask all of this for you and for me and for all who are far off. I love you from the depths of my being and trust that you will find the truth within.


Whose foundation are you building on?

Did you know that the stone Jasper mentioned in Revelations 21 is a RED colored stone? 21:11 says it’s ‘clear as crystal‘ (yup that totally caught my attention in 2008 when I opened the bible for the 1st time…ya I’m vain lol) then vs 18 ‘the wall is made of jasper, pure as gold, as pure as glass‘ (there I am again…well the meaning of my name lol) lastly and I find the most intriguing is found in verse 19: The foundations of the city walls were decorated with every kind of precious stone. The FIRST foundation was jasper….

Jesus is the FOUNDATION of our Eternal houses. His BLOOD is the Only way to even begin seeking a relationship with God. Understanding the depth of LOVE that He has for us, that He chose to be lowered from His royal position and became a man. Then this same man that gave it all up loved and taught us everything about the Father…and then we put Him on the Cross to die a horrific death. And as He hung there between two criminals; Jesus said, “Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing” Luke 23:34. And you know what….God promises that anything we ask of Him He will do…if we forgive others He will forgive us. Therefore, Jesus’ life and death was all for US, and we ARE FORGIVEN. PERIOD.

But woe to the one who keeps on sinning after they know the truth. Hebrews 10:26 warns those that there is nothing left to sacrifice for you, and all you have to look forward to is a fiery death. Harsh, I know….True though. Whether you want to believe it or not……if you want salvation….then it’s ALL of Gods Word or it’s NONE.

So I ask you….whose foundation are you building on? Because we all are.

Meeting at the Cross

I decided to step out of my box just now and I typed the word “numb” in the search box. I could only read a few of the posts of people expressing the feeling of being unable to express what they’re feeling. Coincidence?

I don’t think so. I have noticed over the years on Facebook that others will begin to go through the same kind of symptoms that I will be feeling inside. For example say I’m having a really bad mental attack from the enemy. I will then begin to see status updates with similar remarks as to what I am thinking. Then there are the few that are on the opposite side of this circle and they encourage those who are struggling.

Many of the posts I saw today write very similar things. Such as “I don’t even know why I feel like this”. What if…. what if they feel like this simply because they are on the side of the coin waiting for another to come and shine their light and lift another up?

Far fetched I know….but it’s a thought to ponder. One to possibly open your mind up to the next time you encounter someone having a day when everything seems to go wrong. Maybe it’s your turn to be the one to lift them up.

The thought that keeps coming to mind is the figure 8. I don’t have any fancy pictures to upload but the figure 8 is also the symbol for infinity. It’s a never ending circle that meets at the Cross. Imagine if you will one side being Light the other being dark….they both meet at the Cross. The question I want to leave with you is….what side are you on today…and what are you doing with it?

Healing in hindsight

Gifted for Leadership: Be Still, Ailing Minister, Part 2

“About a year ago you were here.” She pointed to the page. “Now you are here, and you need to stay there as long as necessary. There’s no telling how long it will be, but you’ll know when it’s time to emerge. If you try to break free before you’re ready, truly ready, you’ll do more harm than good, and you’ll end up right back where you were at the point of your burnout.”

I could cry reading this one. See God has been working on me for years, even before I ever stepped foot into church. But when I finally did and allowed Him access to ALL of me, He began revealing areas that needed healing. And I knew these would. But then He touched areas that I had either never even knew existed or thought were conquered. Then to really shake things up He made sure when Matt died I had no one but Him to lean on. This was the hardest, yet most important part of my life thus far. Here’s the thing though, He kept me isolated and I knew in my heart, soul, and mind that I needed to be. Too many open wounds and emotional scars exposed to properly function. But this is frowned upon like the first article points out. So I went to church and tried to socialize on good days. Tried to volunteer bc my heart desperately wanted to please God and give back. BUT this caused me to put on a temporary bandage in order to make it through, only to have to yanked off and my husband or children suffer the wrath of all that was exposed.

As I read this, I could get bitter and keep score of how I had poor guidance. But what’s done is done. And they couldn’t have known the depths that God was going within my heart and mind. No, I will do what the Lord has ALWAYS done in my life. I will store this moment within my mind and emotions and ask Him to make sure I remember all of it, so I can be empathetic to the one He brings along my path in the future.

Friends, we are called to be the LIGHT of Christ in the world. Someone needs to walk in the darkness and keep stepping forward towards the glimmer of LIGHT we see up ahead. When we do this, and are transparent we leave a trail that Shines brighter than we imagine.

~sometimes I just gotta write~

How I SEE Gods Voice through images.


This picture speaks of my deepest desire. To BE authentic and REAL. No matter how humiliating it seems. I want to know others true self. The only way that will happen is if I am my true self. I have shine my LIGHT so others have the courage to shine their LIGHT. Here’s a little word play and how my mind saw a deeper meaning to the title sentence.

Remember friends how one sees God’s voice may be different, it doesn’t mean it’s wrong.
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God teaches me through my children

I love the way God teaches me through my children.

Tristan and I are going through a plan on titled “The Book of Daniel with kids” it is 22 days long and we are on day 3. Today I yet again had to read through Daniel 1, and to be honest I complained. (Philippians 2:14 do everything without complaining… oops) I’m ready to get into the meat of this book and wanted to move on. Remember the title…My God showed me that I had been missing the meat He had for Tristan and I in chapter 1. The exact “meat” that God had been revealing at a deeper level in my husband and I for the last few weeks. That GOD is in ALL things…GOOD AND BAD.

Tristan and I read the International Children’s Bible (ICB), which I personally recommend for all children (even some adults). (The link above however is the closest they have online which is NCV) Here are a few of the key verses that helped me explain to him, and remind myself, about Gods Sovereignty.

  1. 1:2 – The Lord allowed Nebuchadnezzar to capture Jehoiakim king of Judah.
  2. 1:9 – God made Ashpenaz want to be kind and merciful to Daniel.
  3. 1:12,13- “Daniel said to the guard, “Please give us this test for ten days: Don’t give us anything but vegetables to eat and water to drink. Then after the ten days compare us with the other young men who eat the king’s food. See for yourself who looks healthier. Then you judge for yourself how you want to treat us your servants.”
  4. 1:17 – (a)God gave these four men wisdom and the ability to learn. They learned many kind of things people had written and studied. (b)Daniel could also understand all kinds of visions and dreams.

In these first two verse we see God working. God allowed the king to be captured, and I can imagine that the men of Nebuchadnezzar weren’t too gentle when they were capturing him. Yet, what I want to point out is that GOD ALLOWED it to happen. In Romans 8:28 we are told that God works ALL things for GOOD, for those who love God and are called to His purpose. We are ALL called to live out Gods purpose, but not all love God. I mention this because I want anyone who is reading this to understand that there is an expectation that we are all called to when we ask Jesus Christ to be our Lord. The Holy Spirit will strengthen you as you walk in obedience to Gods call on your life, and you will WANT to live out this expectation with a desire that you’ve never had for anything else in your life. (If you’re not experiencing this, then it is possible you have not truly accepted Jesus as your personal Lord and Savior. Pray about this and reach out to someone who can guide you into this relationship.)

Back on topic, the second verse God gave me a beautiful analogy to give to Tristan to see if He understood where we are. Imagine some one’s heart is dark, yet in the center of it there is a small Light. This small Light is placed there by God. Now imagine the heart of Gods children, it is filled with Light. When we are filled with a room filled with those who have dark hearts, what will happen to the one heart that has a small Light when we live the way God tells us to? Blessed his heart (& mine) he knew the answer. “That Light will grow” All throughout the Old and New Testament we are told that we will have trouble in this life. But in john 16:33 we are given a promise, Jesus has already overcome this world. The end of our life here is already written and given to us. Jesus is the Light of this World, and His Spirit now lives IN US. Therefore, WE are the LIGHT of THIS world. We are to SHINE HIS LIGHT, especially in the darkest of situations. We never know who God has placed a small seed of Light in, just waiting for one of His Children to Be the LIGHT that they were freely given.

The third verse shows us this Light that Daniel displayed. He knew that He was the mouth piece for himself, and these 3 other men of God. He also knew that they were to be trained for 3 years. He respectively asked to be tested for 10 of the 1095 days and if they were not pleased then the 4 men would do as they asked. Daniel knew that God was with them, and His way was best. By doing this Daniel honored God and saved the 3 men as well as the guard and chief officer Ashpenaz.

The last verse has two parts. Because of Daniel’s obedience to Gods ways all four men were given wisdom and the ability to learn the things needed in order to ultimately fulfill Gods purpose for the men of Judah to be captured. In 1:20b it says that Nebuchadnezzar found that these men were 10x’s better than all the fortune-tellers and magicians in his kingdom. These 4 men stood out above all the rest because they had Gods blessings. But it was Daniel who had an extra amount of anointing. He was also able to understand all kinds of dreams and visions. Daniel’s life up to this point is very similar to the life of Joseph. Both men were held in captivity, both men honored God in their actions and both men were given gifts that would advance them in the eyes of their captors.

I want to end this by going back to the men of Judah that were captured. It doesn’t say here in Chapter one how many of these men were captured, but as I turn to Numbers 2:3 it tells me that there were 74,600 in the camp of Judah. Different time, but I’m using this as a reference point. That’s a lot of men, and only 4 of them were chosen to Shine Gods Light in the lives of their enemies.

Friends, the odds may be stacked against you according the standard of the our enemy, the world. BUT….the LIGHT that is IN YOU was placed there so that YOU would influence those around you, whom God placed there. Jesus came so that ALL would be saved, so whether that person seems good or bad, the seed of Light is in them….waiting for someone to Shine so that their Light will grow. God will place us each in situations that will challenge and sometimes terrify us. But I pray that you stand firm in Truth. That the spirit of fear is not from God, therefore has no true power over you or I. Fear is a LIE, the belief of this lie is how this fear was created. We break this lie with TRUTH. Know your fears, and then seek out the TRUTH so break this fear.


The World needs to see YOUR LIGHT. God has called you and I to be the Light of the World. This is why Jesus died for us, so that each of us would gain access to the Father….we are called to Shine in the dark. Know that NOTHING happens in this world that God is not aware of. He does not create nor need to use the bad in order to advance His plan. He will however allow it, which means He has already planned the GOOD to come out of it. (see Jeremiah 29:11, Romans 8:28, Genesis 50:20) Jesus is the Anchor of our souls.

Oh, one last thing…spend time with children…let God teach you through them. They understand more than we think.

~sometimes I just gotta write~

Open for discussion….predestination….

“And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to His purpose. For those God foreknew He also predestined to be conformed to the likeness of His Son, the he might be the firstborn among many brothers. And those He predestines, He also called; those He called; He also justified; those He justified, He also glorified.” – Romans 8:28-30

Predestined – To Destine in advance; foreordain; predetermine

Foreknew- To know BEFOREHAND

Justified – To show satisfactory reason or EXCUSE for something done. To qualify as bail or surety

Before we were ever born God already knew what our entire lives would entail. NOTHING happens that God is not aware of. There are NO Plan B’s with God. He is NOT a God of disorder, or a God that lies. We are already told about the end of this world. So if God is a God of ORDER and HE has already given us in print what the END will be like….WHY do we believe one moment under His Sun is unaccounted for?

If you are a Child of God then seek diligently to hear His voice. What I have come to know is that God speaks to each of us differently. He is a personal God, He knows things that stick out to us and hold meaning. For instance Numbers, Dates, Music & Birds are additional ways that God speaks to me. He uses His Word, or the Prophetic Word of another. He has spoken to me audibly, as well as instilling information supernaturally in my mind. He has also spoken to me through dreams and visions.

So when Jesus said “I am the good shepherd; I know my sheep and my sheep know me” (John 10:14) I believe He is explaining that He knows how to speak to us in a way that we will know it is Him. If we truly believe He speaks to us.

Going back to those justified. This is such a hard topic to write on, especially after the recent events in Boston. This blog was started on April 6th after hearing about Rick Warren’s sons suicide. God had me in deep thought about Judas Iscariot and the role that he played in the redemption of mankind. I do believe that he was predestined to betray Jesus. I believe this because God knows ALL. There are NO Plan B’s to Gods story of redemption. He created Adam from the dust, yet Jesus was created from Spirit. Which of those two men sound like plan A? It may have been the second man, but not the second plan.

What does this mean? I’m not completely sure just yet. God hasn’t given me all the details as to why this is so important that I post it. All I know as of today is that my life has been written and every hair on my head is accounted for. Gods Written Word says this, and He also has given me revelation to affirm this. But I will admit this, even with the facts I previously listed, every day I still doubt. That’s why He also tells me and YOU that HIS GRACE is SUFFIECIENT!

Please feel free to discuss your thoughts on this topic…it’s a fresh one that I’m trusting God will blossom into something beautiful.

~sometimes I just gotta write~

He answers…are you listening?

God answers prayers. This morning while praying for a friends sister who has bleeding in her head I could feel the pressure in my head. Then I asked my husband to join me in prayer and he also felt the pressure. My bible then flipped to Ezekial, the prophet that lived out what it was that God was wanting. This was my way of hearing God telling me that we will “feel” Him and to stay in tune with our bodies. The answer came just a short while ago. Psalm 107:19-21 brought through a devotional I am not apart of but followed the Spirits leading. As I began to write out this prayer with my name I then knew it wasn’t for ME, but for her sister. This is what it says: They {insert name} cried out tot he Lord in her trouble, and He saved them from distress. He sent out His word and Healed her: He rescued Her from the grave. Let them give thanks to the Lord for His unfailing Love and His wonderful deeds for mankind.

Open your eyes and Hearts to hear and see Him. Never underestimate the lengths God has already gone to so You would hear Him. Remember, He knew exactly where’d you’d be when you cried out o Him. Open the eyes of their hearts Lord.