I am not Lucky!

Someone made an innocent comment on a post today and said “You’re so lucky”. I get the gesture, but it offended me. Here is why….⁣

I am not lucky. I have never been lucky. Things in my life have always been HARD. Childhood was filled with trauma after trauma. Teenage years were just as awful. Young adult hood is filled with drugs, alcohol, and ungodly things that should’ve killed me. ⁣

This time in my life is also when death entered. First with friends overdosing, then my brother tragically dying, then family, father, and lastly my childrens Father. ⁣

I’ve been divorced and going through a second one currently. I’ve been evicted, broke, and hungry. ⁣

I am not lucky. ⁣

I am BLESSED. Blessed by a loving God who redeemed me from that tragic, dark, and empty life. He filled me with His Holy Spirit allowing me the wisdom to see all the good He can, will, and has used from all that darkness before Him. ⁣

Luck is a superstitious belief, a by chance happening. Being Blessed is a state of mind that holds me firmly in the Truth that I Am LOVED. I Am Love. I Am Never Forsaken. I Am Never Alone. I Am Blessed, not lucky. ⁣

“Blessed is she who believed in the promises the Lord had spoken to her” Luke 1:45

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So does He?

I, even I, am the one who wipes out your transgressions for My own sake, And I will not remember your sins.
Isaiah 43:25 NASB

“You are altogether beautiful, my darling, And there is no blemish in you.
Song of Solomon 4:7 NASB

It’s time we do away with the ignorance of our sinful flesh, it’s time you wake up to your True Identity my brothers and sisters.

But you are A chosen race, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people for God’s own possession , so that you may proclaim the excellencies of Him who has called you out of darkness into His marvelous light; for you once were not a people , but now you are the people of God ; you had not received mercy, but now you have received mercy .
1 Peter 2:9‭-‬10 NASB

Stop claiming your sin (flesh) as you!

Therefore if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creature; the old things passed away; behold, new things have come.
2 Corinthians 5:17 NASB

For the mind set on the flesh is death, but the mind set on the Spirit is life and peace, because the mind set on the flesh is hostile toward God; for it does not subject itself to the law of God, for it is not even able to do so, and those who are in the flesh cannot please God. However, you are not in the flesh but in the Spirit, if indeed the Spirit of God dwells in you. But if anyone does not have the Spirit of Christ, he does not belong to Him.
Romans 8:6‭-‬9 NASB

So I ask, does He live in you?

Am I closer than you?

“You’re so close to the Lord, and I could really use some prayers”

“I know you have it in good with God, and I could really use some prayers”

These are just a couple of the messages I get when others are in need of prayer.

I’m humbled and honored to pray for them, that I’m trusted and thought of when they’re in need.

But I’ve got to be honest this idea that I am some how heard more than they are worries me.

The idea that we believe God has favorites, is heart wrenching. In His eyes He sees perfection in all His children. None more than another.

So this morning I asked Him to give me understanding so I can share the Truth with others. And as always He answered.

“You believe me and believe what you hear”

See it’s not that some are closer to God than others, it’s just that some of us trust and believe HIM more. We know His voice therefore are able to discern when He is talking versus our flesh or the enemy.

Our closeness doesn’t come from favoritism it comes from deep trust. One of my most valued life verses is Luke 1:45 “Blessed is she who believes in the promises that the Lord has spoken to her” (paraphrase)

I thought of my children to help explain this truth more.

Kayla trusts in my word. She trusts in my rules and knows that I make them out of love and protection for her. So she doesn’t question me but obeys. I never doubt that she will always make decisions based on what she has been told and what she knows I expect of her. She is easier to speak to because of her Faith in me.

Tristan listens but also needs to be told repeatedly what I expect. He is a little less believing in my rules so is excited to be an adult to test his boundaries. (He is a lot like me at his age 🤷‍♀️) Although, he is obedient, he doesn’t know my voice (rules) as closely as Kayla does and has to be told and watched more closely. He is harder to speak to because of his questions and this requires me to find different ways to assure him of my love and protection.

I love neither of them more than the other, one is just easier to speak to because one believes me and my word more than the other.

I don’t have a closer seat to our Father than others. I just believe Him and His word more.

I know His voice and I trust when He speaks to me.

I challenge you to listen to what I’ve written. Understand that the SAME POWER that was given to JESUS CHRIST is given to US. God of the Universe desires to empower YOU from WITHIN. Jesus said we will do GREATER things than HIM. It’s time you begin to study who God says YOU ARE and what He has ALREADY GIVEN TO US.

This is how you gain freedom within your mind. This is how you gain trust in who you are.
This is how your life truly changes.

My sheep hear My voice, and I know them, and they follow Me; and I give eternal life to them, and they will never perish; and no one will snatch them out of My hand.

John 10:27‭-‬28 NASB

Ramblings, on purpose.

Do you ever think about your purpose?

I mean really think about it.

I do. All the time.

I’m a thinker. I think about everything. Grand things, small things, future things, past things. I’m always thinking.

I want to know why I do what I do. Why I react the way I react. I want to know how to CHANGE the things I dislike about myself. I desire to grow. Desire to achieve greatness.

What does any of this have to do with my original question?

I believe that our purpose is intricately designed within us. So if we are unaware of who we are or why we do what we do, how will we ever be able to fully walk out in our purpose.

If our viewpoint of ourselves is jaded or incomplete, then our output will also be incomplete. Therefore, knowing ourselves, our TRUE selves is vital…… I believe in fulfilling our purpose.

So I’m constantly looking forward but also asking how my past has created this future and what can I adjust to make the outcome closer to where I desire to be.

I believe that when you are open to receiving this information God will send you what you’re ready to receive.

I’m currently reading a few things that speak about changing your mindset, as well as receiving videos from friends that speak on how our past directly effects our actions and thoughts.

Here’s the thing though…… I am a mother. So as I learn this information about how my past has created this reality I live in. I am compelled to make sure that the moments I spend with my kids are focused on creating a future they don’t have to rescue themselves from.

That. Is my purpose.

I’ve always known this too.

I remember being 10 years old in my front yard, playing by myself and thinking how I couldn’t wait to be a mother so I could love my kids so much that they would never question how I felt about them.

At 17 when asked where do you see yourself in 10 years, I immediately responded as a mother. I’ve always desired to be a Mother. It was designed within me before I ever came about. The universe has given me all the tools I need to be the mother I always desired to be.

But I had to work to get here. I had to consider my ways over and over again. I have failed many times in creating a safe environment for my kids.

And yet still I know without a doubt that each day I am fulfilling my purpose in their lives. As well as the other mom in my boys lives.

Do you know your purpose?

Are you looking within each day to find it?

Freedom isn’t a feeling.

Jesus answered them, “Truly, truly, I say to you, everyone who commits sin is the slave of sin. The slave does not remain in the house forever; the son does remain forever. So if the Son makes you free, you will be free indeed.
John 8:34‭-‬36 NASB

So Jesus was saying to those Jews who had believed Him, “If you continue in My word, then you are truly disciples of Mine; and you will know the truth, and the truth will make you free.”
John 8:31‭-‬32 NASB

This morning two different teachers of mine posted these verses. This was the order that I read them in. So I wanted to share them how I read them.

There was also a comment under the son vs slave one because she asked “Are you a slave or a son?” One gentleman replied and said he knows he’s a son but doesnt always feel like one.

I know this season in life so well. I used to read the scriptures until sunrise in tears weeping; being bound by my guilt and emotions. Knowing that the Scriptures said I was free but I felt anything but.

It wasn’t until God plucked me up out of my father’s home (current church) and brought me to a teacher who focused on our eternal identity using ONLY the scriptures. Which was a prayer I had been praying for months. The spirit within me knew there was freedom within those pages. But the enemy bound on my back kept me blinded from BELIEVING them.

Freedom is NOT a feeling.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart And do not lean on your own understanding.
Proverbs 3:5 NASB

for we walk by faith, not by sight-
2 Corinthians 5:7 NASB

Our identity as born again believers is SEATED IN CHRIST. This makes absolutely no sense because my body is sitting on my back porch writing this blog. Therefore I MUST believe that my identity is NOT my flesh.

However, you are not in the flesh but in the Spirit, if indeed the Spirit of God dwells in you. But if anyone does not have the Spirit of Christ, he does not belong to Him.
Romans 8:9 NASB

The problem today with Christian’s who continually suffer emotionally is a BELIEF in their IDENTITY.

They remain on that cross, they remain in their flesh, they refuse to RISE with Christ as a NEW CREATION. They are continually trying to pour new wine into their old wine skins and time after time it bursts and the emotions take them captive.

They are prisoners by choice.

Ouch… I know. It hurts to tell someone that. But it’s TRUE.

If you have confessed Jesus is Lord and been baptized into His death and still suffer emotionally, then it’s time you get off of that cross and out of the curse and into your true identity, which is seated IN Christ and IN Christ there is NO sin.

No one who is born of God practices sin, because His seed abides in him; and he cannot sin, because he is born of God.
1 John 3:9 NASB

We know that no one who is born of God sins; but He who was born of God keeps him, and the evil one does not touch him.
1 John 5:18 NASB

We either believe all of the scriptures or we believe non of it.

These above truths have had many fellow Christian’s walk away from me, as well as pray against my belief in them. Want to know what I did? I prayed that they would be freed from the fear of claiming their freedom IN CHRIST. And most have.

My flesh is filthy and will always be. I cannot cleanse it and take it with me. My identity is NOT my flesh. I do not own the emotions that come from this flesh. I make them abide by the Spirit & Truth that I have hidden in my heart. I submit ALL thoughts (even the seemingly good ones) to Christ before claiming them as my own.

My freedom is NOT a feeling.

It is a BELIEF in what He has done & said.

Friends, your suffering although it may be from factual situations, it doesn’t have to be filled with darkness. We can mourn righteously. We can also rejoice in all things. Knowing where our home is and where we will one day be.

Your suffering is from a lack of belief. I pray for you to ask your Father for belief to help with your understanding of what has already been written for us. I pray for you to know deep within your being that YOU ARE FREE FROM THE CURSE. YOU ARE HOLY, RIGHTEOUS, AND CLEAN CLEAN CLEAN.

YOUR SAVIOR HAS ALREADY FINISHED THE WORK. ITS TIME FOR YOU TO BELIEVE.

And blessed is she who believed that there would be a fulfillment of what had been spoken to her by the Lord.”
Luke 1:45 NASB

* suggested reading

Romans 6

• the death of your flesh

Romans 7

• the battle between your flesh & Spirit

Romans 8

• the Truth of YOUR identity

I pray you begin to walk in your Truth.

But an hour is coming, and now is, when the true worshipers will worship the Father in spirit and truth; for such people the Father seeks to be His worshipers. God is spirit, and those who worship Him must worship in spirit and truth.
John 4:23‭-‬24 NASB
https://bible.com/bible/100/jhn.4.23-24.NASB

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Live by Faith, makes life sweeter

Numbers have always been used by God to speak to me. There are several passages throughout the Bible that are specific numbers that have such specific meaning to my life. This is one of them.

Keep me as the apple of the eye; Hide me in the shadow of Your wings
Psalms 17:8 NASB

I heard someone speak and say “You are the apple of God’s eye, you’re HIS girl” and I thought ‘imagine if that were true’.

See I was never a daddy’s girl. My dad and I were a lot alike therefore we battled for control. So to be the apple of my Daddy’s eye was foriegn to me. God knew this….. and made sure I would believe this when it was spoken. Because when I googled it to find out where it was written the numbers 17:8 is my birthdate.

See those without faith see that as a coincidence. I know my God had His hand in making sure those were the exact numbers so when my untrusting heart heard those precious words I would absolutely believe that I am indeed the apple of Gods eye.

I pray today you begin to believe the messages He sends you. I pray you believe that you are so special to God that He would indeed make sure hundreds of years ago specific numbers would be placed exactly where He needed them to say “Yup that’s specifically for you”

Trust His love for you. It’ll change your life.

You should read this

Do you know that you were made for more?

I always have. I still do. I have this continual desire to evolve into a greater version of myself. Especially when I have those pivotal birthdays.

I just recently turned 40 and man have I LOVED every bit of it. Which is shocking in itself really. But it’s TRUE.

I love being a mother of almost 4 teenagers, again shocking 😂.

I love being able to look in the mirror and say ‘you look beautiful’ wrinkles and all y’all.

I also love how young I feel. I love that I feel like I’m just now finally getting to the sweet spot in life. Where JOY comes from the smallest moments, and I appreciate every aspect of my life. Even the struggles, because truth is God has always provided during every season of my life. My faith in HIM has grown so intensely that I can’t help but rejoice in all things.

But back to my question, do you know you were made for MORE?

Well you ARE.

But you are A chosen race, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people for God’s own possession , so that you may proclaim the excellencies of Him who has called you out of darkness into His marvelous light; for you once were not a people , but now you are the people of God ; you had not received mercy, but now you have received mercy .

1 Peter 2:9‭-‬10 NASB

You are royalty my sweet friend. Chosen royalty. You were specifically CALLED by GOD to be apart of HIS glorious LIGHT. I mean how stinking cool is that?

Do me a favor, don’t blow this message off, hear me out for a second. There is a desire within all of us, one that harbors dreams. Ones that are for our families, for others, for our communities. God put those dreams there. And He says if we are good stewards with what’s been given to us, then much more will be given. But if we do nothing with what Hes given then all of it will be taken away. See Matthew 25:14-30

I challenge you today to know that these words that you’re reading were not by chance. I challenge you to seek Gods direction within your life, within your heart, and ask boldly for the courage to fulfill what HE has ALREADY placed within you.

Delight yourself in the Lord ; And He will give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord , Trust also in Him, and He will do it.
Psalms 37:4‭-‬5 NASB

Words

Words…

I love them so much. I imagine most writers do. They hold the power within them to catapult you from your chair into a world filled with mysterious creatures and wonder.

They also hold the power to crush ones soul. So many words are written for all the world to see. The internet has become an anchor in most homes. A necessity almost. Our young children have access to anything and everyone with just one click.

And yet…..the words that we see and read come from someone. Someone sitting behind the co.puter or their cell phone within their fingers, creating words by putting letters together. Possibly never even considering the impact that those words may have on another soul.

Words can bring LIFE to a heart that is barely hanging on. Words can bring HOPE when there seems to be none left.

Your WORDS matter. My WORDS matter. YOU MATTER.

One simple change. One word removed and the entire paragraph changes.

YOU MATTER.

Who you are, what you believe, how you behave. It ALL matters. The things that you say, think, and write MATTER.

Someone somewhere will read what was written and an impact is made. Someone will over hear what you say and an impact is made.

I know we go through life only focusing on US and how what we do or say impacts US. But perhaps, even just for today. Consider the words you allow to be spoken. Consider the words you believe. Consider the words you write.

Because someone, somewhere, will be impacted by YOU and the WORDS you leave behind.

Can we talk about money for a minute? 🤔💸

Can we talk about money for a minute? 🤔💸

As believers we are continually hearing “The Love of Money is the root of all evil”

For the love of money is a root of all sorts of evil, and some by longing for it have wandered away from the faith and pierced themselves with many griefs. 1 Timothy 6:10 NASB

But can we focus on one single word that is so overlooked, LOVE.

The LOVE of Money. Then Timothy goes on to say “some have wandered from the faith longing for it”

This has and can absolutely happen. Many times we can lose sight of why we desired to have financial security.

BUT……… MONEY itself is NOT evil. It’s your motives towards the money.

We NEED money to live in the United States. We NEED money to EAT, PROVIDE SHELTER, PROVIDE MEDICAL CARE, & so many other things.

Then we have those who God gives a calling to. To provide for orphans, adoption, ministries, widows, missions & so much more.

Those desires require MONEY. Whether you fundraise for the money or are able to pay for these things on your own they require MONEY.

So many of us have such an awful subconscious towards money. When we don’t have it we will say things like “I hate money” hence you’re generating the energy and belief that money is BAD. So guess what you don’t have coming to you? Yup money, bc money is BAD & God isn’t trying to provide you with what’s bad. Or we blame money for our problems “ugh money causes so many problems” no it’s YOUR belief about money that’s creating a problem. The problem is your discontentment without the money. Your belief that the money will provide contentment.

Paul tells us that he has learned to be CONTENT with plenty and with little. So he keeps his heart free from the LOVE of Money.

Not that I speak from want, for I have learned to be content in whatever circumstances I am. I know how to get along with humble means, and I also know how to live in prosperity; in any and every circumstance I have learned the secret of being filled and going hungry, both of having abundance and suffering need.

Philippians 4:11‭-‬12 NASB

But he doesn’t say MONEY is the problem.

So let’s flip the coin for a moment.

Furthermore, as for every man to whom God has #given riches and wealth, He has also #empowered him to eat from them and to receive his reward and rejoice in his labor; this is the gift of God. For he will not often consider the years of his life, because God keeps him occupied with the gladness of his heart.

Ecclesiastes 5:19‭-‬20 NASB

God keeps him occupied with the gladness of his heart. 💜👑

Imagine being able to GO without hesitation when God puts a DESIRE in your heart.

Imagine being able to GIVE without hesitation when God puts a DESIRE in your heart.

Delight yourself in the Lord; And He will give you the desires of your heart.

Psalms 37:4 NASB

Imagine being able to LIVE without having to STRESS over essentials like bills, debt, & medical emergencies.

Friends MONEY is NOT the enemy.

Your HEART 💜 has and will always be the area that needs to be addressed.

Watch over your heart with all diligence, For from it flow the springs of life. 💧

Proverbs 4:23 NASB