Fear has overtaken you.

When I saw their fear, I rose and spoke to the nobles, the officials and the rest of the people: “Do not be afraid of them; remember the Lord who is great and awesome, and fight for your brothers, your sons, your daughters, your wives and your houses.” Nehemiah 4:14

The time is now that we stand up in Him who He has sent. The time is now to be the hands, feet, and MOUTH piece of God. The time is now to get out of the “hospital ” and start walking as the disciples you OUGHT to be by now.

What did you think your studying was for? Just to help you make it through the week?


If you are a child of God then you have a MISSION to reconcile those back to HIM.

Its time to WAKE UP my brothers and sisters. Its time for you to stop playing church and start BEING THE CHURCH.



If you are a true child of God then you have already been justified by HIM (Romans 8:30)

Jesus hung on a cross and didn’t step down to be justified.

Stephen while being brutally murdered saw the face of God and didn’t rise up to be justified.

They BOTH asked for those who were MURDERING them, brutally, to be FORGIVEN. And you’re on your social media platforms destroying others chances of ever seeing God through His people. For what? To prove to someone you have rights?

Friends, your FEAR has overcome you. Your FEAR has hardened your hearts. You have forgotten your first love. You have forgotten the price that He paid to set you FREE from this world and its ways.

The time is now to turn back. To remember who you are. To remember who is IN you. To remember who has redeemed you.

Its time to LOVE yourself as He loves you, so you can learn to love others.

Therefore there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus. For the law of the Spirit of life in Christ Jesus has set you free from the law of sin and of death. For what the Law could not do, weak as it was through the flesh, God did: sending His own Son in the likeness of sinful flesh and as an offering for sin, He condemned sin in the flesh, so that the requirement of the Law might be fulfilled in us, who do not walk according to the flesh but according to the Spirit. For those who are according to the flesh set their minds on the things of the flesh, but those who are according to the Spirit, the things of the Spirit. For the mind set on the flesh is death, but the mind set on the Spirit is life and peace, because the mind set on the flesh is hostile toward God; for it does not subject itself to the law of God, for it is not even able to do so, and those who are in the flesh cannot please God. However, you are not in the flesh but in the Spirit, if indeed the Spirit of God dwells in you. But if anyone does not have the Spirit of Christ, he does not belong to Him. If Christ is in you, though the body is dead because of sin, yet the spirit is alive because of righteousness. But if the Spirit of Him who raised Jesus from the dead dwells in you, He who raised Christ Jesus from the dead will also give life to your mortal bodies through His Spirit who dwells in you. So then, brethren, we are under obligation, not to the flesh, to live according to the flesh- for if you are living according to the flesh, you must die; but if by the Spirit you are putting to death the deeds of the body, you will live. For all who are being led by the Spirit of God, these are sons of God. For you have not received a spirit of slavery leading to fear again, but you have received a spirit of adoption as sons by which we cry out, “Abba! Father!”
Romans 8:1-15

Remember who you ARE.


Root of bitterness

When was the last time you read Ephesians 1?

What a beautiful love story.

Verse 7-8 says: In Him we have redemption through His blood, the forgiveness of our trespasses, according to the riches of HIS grace, which He LAVISHED upon us, in all wisdom and insight

⁹(making known to us the mystery of His will, according to His purpose, which He set forth in Christ ¹⁰as a plan for the fullness of time, to unite all things in Him, things in heaven AND things on earth.) For those with OCD I finished the sentence πŸ˜‰πŸ˜†

Can you just chew on those two verses for a minute.

An all knowing God LAVISHES His forgiveness upon us.

The One who sees everything we do, knows everything we THINK, lavishes us with forgiveness.

Lavish: 𝒗𝒆𝒓𝒃

π’ƒπ’†π’”π’•π’π’˜ π’”π’π’Žπ’†π’•π’‰π’Šπ’π’ˆ π’Šπ’ π’ˆπ’†π’π’†π’“π’π’–π’” 𝒐𝒓 π’†π’™π’•π’“π’‚π’—π’‚π’ˆπ’‚π’π’• π’’π’–π’‚π’π’•π’Šπ’•π’Šπ’†π’” 𝒐𝒏.

Imagine that kind of forgiveness.

God has been working on me with forgiveness towards those who have hurt me. And forgiving myself for hurting others.

Forgiveness is HARD y’all. The enemy uses my memory against me. My emotions against me. Which is why it’s so vital to have an arsenal of TRUTH to combat against them when they arise.

The truth is, what’s done is done.

You cannot go back and change the past. Period.

So you either get a grasp on forgiveness or you continue to suffer through each relationship that is brought into your life to trigger and expose that root of unforgiveness & eventually bitterness. Listen, God said He will complete a good work in you. So these continual lessons are because of His great LOVE for us.

When I think of the damage bitterness causes I am always reminded of Revelation 8:10-11

𝑻𝒉𝒆 π’•π’‰π’Šπ’“π’… π’‚π’π’ˆπ’†π’ 𝒔𝒐𝒖𝒏𝒅𝒆𝒅, 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒂 π’ˆπ’“π’†π’‚π’• 𝒔𝒕𝒂𝒓 𝒇𝒆𝒍𝒍 π’‡π’“π’π’Ž 𝒉𝒆𝒂𝒗𝒆𝒏, π’ƒπ’–π’“π’π’Šπ’π’ˆ π’π’Šπ’Œπ’† 𝒂 𝒕𝒐𝒓𝒄𝒉, 𝒂𝒏𝒅 π’Šπ’• 𝒇𝒆𝒍𝒍 𝒐𝒏 𝒂 π’•π’‰π’Šπ’“π’… 𝒐𝒇 𝒕𝒉𝒆 π’“π’Šπ’—π’†π’“π’” 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒐𝒏 𝒕𝒉𝒆 π’”π’‘π’“π’Šπ’π’ˆπ’” 𝒐𝒇 π’˜π’‚π’•π’†π’“π’”. 𝑻𝒉𝒆 π’π’‚π’Žπ’† 𝒐𝒇 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒔𝒕𝒂𝒓 π’Šπ’” 𝒄𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒆𝒅 π‘Ύπ’π’“π’Žπ’˜π’π’π’…; 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒂 π’•π’‰π’Šπ’“π’… 𝒐𝒇 𝒕𝒉𝒆 π’˜π’‚π’•π’†π’“π’” π’ƒπ’†π’„π’‚π’Žπ’† π’˜π’π’“π’Žπ’˜π’π’π’…, 𝒂𝒏𝒅 π’Žπ’‚π’π’š π’Žπ’†π’ π’…π’Šπ’†π’… π’‡π’“π’π’Ž 𝒕𝒉𝒆 π’˜π’‚π’•π’†π’“π’”, 𝒃𝒆𝒄𝒂𝒖𝒔𝒆 π’•π’‰π’†π’š π’˜π’†π’“π’† π’Žπ’‚π’…π’† π’ƒπ’Šπ’•π’•π’†π’“.
π‘Ήπ’†π’—π’†π’π’‚π’•π’Šπ’π’ 8:10‭-‬11

and many men died from the waters, because they were made bitter.

Friends, forgiveness releases US from this root of bitterness.

It’s time to work through our ish, its time we lay down our need to be justified and simply forgive them and ourselves. It’s time we let God do in us what we truly desire for Him to do, change us.

Let us follow in God’s example and LAVISH them (& US) with forgiveness.

I promise the reward is so very worth it. 🀍

When the devil gets a foothold

Let’s talk about sin. Oddly enough it’s the topic that catapulted my relationship deeper into who I am in Christ and what He has truly done for all of mankind.

It’s a topic that I am passionate about.

It’s a topic I know all too well.

Have you ever read about the woman who poured a years worth of perfume on Jesus’s feet, washing them with her hair and endless tears? Read here

I resonate with that woman, I have been and currently am, that woman.

The tears from uprooting sin that although I know has already been forgiven on the Cross, has ceased to stop.

It’s as if the devil has dug down deep into my flesh and is currently burning me from the inside out.

There is no hiding from it once he has a hold on you.

Confessing them to the Lord and holding on for dear mercy to show up is all I can do right now.

I am continually renewing my mind it truths about my freedom, how sin has no dominion over me, how there is no condemnation in those in Christ Jesus.

Reminding myself and the devil that God is not a tormentor and has forgotten my sins.

We say to our friends when they’re struggling that “the devil is a liar” and oh sweet friends, he is absolutely that.

But sometimes, the best lies are 99% true.

It’s true the things he is saying about me. It’s true the pain I have caused. The damage I created. His ammunition is TRUE.

So how then do I battle this sifting? How do I believe I am free from these sins as well?

I’ve got to believe. Lean not on my own understanding and trust that He has redeemed me. He knew about these sins too. He knew about the pain I would cause in others, He knew the damage to my marriage. The pain in my heart. He knew my doubt in His love in this moment.

GOD KNEW……….and still He laid down His life for me. He took all of my sins, and yours, and became one with them, destroying them through DEATH on the Cross. His Blood has covered all of our transgressions. (Read Romans 6)


So even though I walk through this Valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil. God will never leave me. He has never forsaken me. He loves me today just as much as He did the day He thought of my name.

Friends, I don’t know what sins you carry with you, unable to lay at the cross but I stand with you in the trenches.

Our God has not abandoned us. Our God will ALWAYS choose us. Our God will ALWAYS LOVE US.

Even when others don’t.
Even when we can’t.

He is still FAITHFUL.

Then he said to her, β€œYour sins are forgiven.”

And he said to the woman, β€œYour faith has saved you; go in peace.”
Luke 7:48‭, ‬50 NRSV

Then my enemy will see, and shame will cover her who said to me, β€œWhere is the Lord your God?” My eyes will see her downfall; now she will be trodden down like the mire of the streets.
Micah 7:10 NRSV

When the Valley is long, seek His Water.

Have you ever had an object resonate deeply with your soul?

For me, it’s TREES .Β 

When I see a picture of a mature tree, usually Oaks, my Spirit quickens. I instinctively inhale deeply and allow my mind, heart, and emotions slow down and find its center.

The Lord has been revealing to me, through heartache, how the roots of bitterness & unforgiveness must be revealed in order for me to move forward.

Today, specifically, as I was reading and praying on a situation I had the image of roots came to mind and I quickly looked up the image above. I heard “you must always be searching for water”. Then, I thought how our hearts will be healed as we, like the roots of a tree, continually seek out water.

When a trees roots hits an obstacle, it doesn’t give up, it creates a new path and continues to seek out water.

We too must follow this and continually seek out the Father’s refreshing, life giving, healing water. We must create new paths, new branches, and seek His healing water for our broken hearts.

This had me thinking about how the veins of our hearts resemble that of roots.

And immediately I knew indeed that God was guiding my thoughts. That He had come to this valley of darkness to create a new branch within me, yet keeping His voice the same. In the connectedness of nature, which is outside of me, and my heart which is inside of me.

Together, I see Him. I hear His gentleness in the wisdom He shows me.

I’m not sure how long this valley is, or how deep I must travel but this morning during a meditation on the app Abide, I was reminded that when it rains, the valley fills up first.

My weary heart was deeply encouraged by this truth.

O children of Zion, be glad and rejoice in the Lord your God; for he has given the early rain for your vindication, he has poured down for you abundant rain, the early and the later rain, as before.Β  The threshing floors shall be full of grain, the vats shall overflow with wine and oil.Β  I will repay you for the years that the swarming locust has eaten, the hopper, the destroyer, and the cutter, my great army, which I sent against you.Β  You shall eat in plenty and be satisfied, and praise the name of the Lord your God, who has dealt wondrously with you. And my people shall never again be put to shame.Β  You shall know that I am in the midst of Israel, and that I, the Lord , am your God and there is no other. And my people shall never again be put to shame.Β Β  Then afterward I will pour out my spirit on all flesh; your sons and your daughters shall prophesy, your old men shall dream dreams, and your young men shall see visions.Β  Even on the male and female slaves, in those days, I will pour out my spirit.
Joel 2:23‭-‬29 NRSV

Feels so good to write again. Even in the valley.

Whatever you have, I want it.

Jesus went away from there, and withdrew into the district of Tyre and Sidon. And a Canaanite woman from that region came out and began to cry out, saying, “Have mercy on me, Lord, Son of David; my daughter is cruelly demon-possessed.” But He did not answer her a word. And His disciples came and implored Him, saying, “Send her away, because she keeps shouting at us.” But He answered and said, “I was sent only to the lost sheep of the house of Israel.” But she came and began to bow down before Him, saying, “Lord, help me!” And He answered and said, “It is not good to take the children’s bread and throw it to the dogs.” But she said, “Yes, Lord; but even the dogs feed on the crumbs which fall from their masters’ table.” Then Jesus said to her, “O woman, your faith is great; it shall be done for you as you wish.” And her daughter was healed at once.
Matthew 15:21‭-‬28 NASB

She was willing to humiliate herself for her child. She didn’t care about anything other than healing her daughter.

She believed that Jesus could heal her daughter. She believed. Therefore she received her daughters healing. What we believe we must believe it fully. Just as this woman. She believed even the slightest bit of mercy from Jesus was worth everything.

Whatever Jesus had, she wanted. It was her FAITH & LOVE that healed her. Her love for her child, her Faith in who Jesus said He was.

What do you believe? Do you believe it fully? Would you respond the way she did when he replied the He did? Would you risk everything for your child?

I am not Lucky!

Someone made an innocent comment on a post today and said “You’re so lucky”. I get the gesture, but it offended me. Here is why….⁣
I am not lucky. I have never been lucky. Things in my life have always been HARD. Childhood was filled with trauma after trauma. Teenage years were just as awful. Young adult hood is filled with drugs, alcohol, and ungodly things that should’ve killed me. ⁣
This time in my life is also when death entered. First with friends overdosing, then my brother tragically dying, then family, father, and lastly my childrens Father. ⁣
I’ve been divorced and going through a second one currently. I’ve been evicted, broke, and hungry. ⁣
I am not lucky. ⁣
I am BLESSED. Blessed by a loving God who redeemed me from that tragic, dark, and empty life. He filled me with His Holy Spirit allowing me the wisdom to see all the good He can, will, and has used from all that darkness before Him. ⁣
Luck is a superstitious belief, a by chance happening. Being Blessed is a state of mind that holds me firmly in the Truth that I Am LOVED. I Am Love. I Am Never Forsaken. I Am Never Alone. I Am Blessed, not lucky. ⁣
“Blessed is she who believed in the promises the Lord had spoken to her” Luke 1:45

So does He?

I, even I, am the one who wipes out your transgressions for My own sake, And I will not remember your sins.
Isaiah 43:25 NASB

“You are altogether beautiful, my darling, And there is no blemish in you.
Song of Solomon 4:7 NASB

It’s time we do away with the ignorance of our sinful flesh, it’s time you wake up to your True Identity my brothers and sisters.

But you are A chosen race, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people for God’s own possession , so that you may proclaim the excellencies of Him who has called you out of darkness into His marvelous light; for you once were not a people , but now you are the people of God ; you had not received mercy, but now you have received mercy .
1 Peter 2:9‭-‬10 NASB

Stop claiming your sin (flesh) as you!

Therefore if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creature; the old things passed away; behold, new things have come.
2 Corinthians 5:17 NASB

For the mind set on the flesh is death, but the mind set on the Spirit is life and peace, because the mind set on the flesh is hostile toward God; for it does not subject itself to the law of God, for it is not even able to do so, and those who are in the flesh cannot please God. However, you are not in the flesh but in the Spirit, if indeed the Spirit of God dwells in you. But if anyone does not have the Spirit of Christ, he does not belong to Him.
Romans 8:6‭-‬9 NASB

So I ask, does He live in you?

Am I closer than you?

“You’re so close to the Lord, and I could really use some prayers”

“I know you have it in good with God, and I could really use some prayers”

These are just a couple of the messages I get when others are in need of prayer.

I’m humbled and honored to pray for them, that I’m trusted and thought of when they’re in need.

But I’ve got to be honest this idea that I am some how heard more than they are worries me.

The idea that we believe God has favorites, is heart wrenching. In His eyes He sees perfection in all His children. None more than another.

So this morning I asked Him to give me understanding so I can share the Truth with others. And as always He answered.

“You believe me and believe what you hear”

See it’s not that some are closer to God than others, it’s just that some of us trust and believe HIM more. We know His voice therefore are able to discern when He is talking versus our flesh or the enemy.

Our closeness doesn’t come from favoritism it comes from deep trust. One of my most valued life verses is Luke 1:45 “Blessed is she who believes in the promises that the Lord has spoken to her” (paraphrase)

I thought of my children to help explain this truth more.

Kayla trusts in my word. She trusts in my rules and knows that I make them out of love and protection for her. So she doesn’t question me but obeys. I never doubt that she will always make decisions based on what she has been told and what she knows I expect of her. She is easier to speak to because of her Faith in me.

Tristan listens but also needs to be told repeatedly what I expect. He is a little less believing in my rules so is excited to be an adult to test his boundaries. (He is a lot like me at his age πŸ€·β€β™€οΈ) Although, he is obedient, he doesn’t know my voice (rules) as closely as Kayla does and has to be told and watched more closely. He is harder to speak to because of his questions and this requires me to find different ways to assure him of my love and protection.

I love neither of them more than the other, one is just easier to speak to because one believes me and my word more than the other.

I don’t have a closer seat to our Father than others. I just believe Him and His word more.

I know His voice and I trust when He speaks to me.

I challenge you to listen to what I’ve written. Understand that the SAME POWER that was given to JESUS CHRIST is given to US. God of the Universe desires to empower YOU from WITHIN. Jesus said we will do GREATER things than HIM. It’s time you begin to study who God says YOU ARE and what He has ALREADY GIVEN TO US.

This is how you gain freedom within your mind. This is how you gain trust in who you are.
This is how your life truly changes.

My sheep hear My voice, and I know them, and they follow Me; and I give eternal life to them, and they will never perish; and no one will snatch them out of My hand.

John 10:27‭-‬28 NASB

Ramblings, on purpose.

Do you ever think about your purpose?

I mean really think about it.

I do. All the time.

I’m a thinker. I think about everything. Grand things, small things, future things, past things. I’m always thinking.

I want to know why I do what I do. Why I react the way I react. I want to know how to CHANGE the things I dislike about myself. I desire to grow. Desire to achieve greatness.

What does any of this have to do with my original question?

I believe that our purpose is intricately designed within us. So if we are unaware of who we are or why we do what we do, how will we ever be able to fully walk out in our purpose.

If our viewpoint of ourselves is jaded or incomplete, then our output will also be incomplete. Therefore, knowing ourselves, our TRUE selves is vital…… I believe in fulfilling our purpose.

So I’m constantly looking forward but also asking how my past has created this future and what can I adjust to make the outcome closer to where I desire to be.

I believe that when you are open to receiving this information God will send you what you’re ready to receive.

I’m currently reading a few things that speak about changing your mindset, as well as receiving videos from friends that speak on how our past directly effects our actions and thoughts.

Here’s the thing though…… I am a mother. So as I learn this information about how my past has created this reality I live in. I am compelled to make sure that the moments I spend with my kids are focused on creating a future they don’t have to rescue themselves from.

That. Is my purpose.

I’ve always known this too.

I remember being 10 years old in my front yard, playing by myself and thinking how I couldn’t wait to be a mother so I could love my kids so much that they would never question how I felt about them.

At 17 when asked where do you see yourself in 10 years, I immediately responded as a mother. I’ve always desired to be a Mother. It was designed within me before I ever came about. The universe has given me all the tools I need to be the mother I always desired to be.

But I had to work to get here. I had to consider my ways over and over again. I have failed many times in creating a safe environment for my kids.

And yet still I know without a doubt that each day I am fulfilling my purpose in their lives. As well as the other mom in my boys lives.

Do you know your purpose?

Are you looking within each day to find it?